u/getmminthepaddock

I’m currently a high school junior going onto my senior year, i recently won a fully funded scholarship to KFUPM and i genuinely never heard of this uni before winning the scholarship 😭 so i didn’t apply to it or anything like that. I’m super grateful for this opportunity because Ik a lot of people dream of getting in let alone get a full ride but i was wondering how good it is for a mech eng student? And is it more academic and preps for grad school or more of a career prep kinda uni (hope u get what i mean) also i heard that girls and boys lectures are separate is that true? Also how is student life there outside of class? (As in clubs, societies, etc..) how is dorm lifestyle? And how’s the area like? Is it urban? Is it like a big city with cafes and malls and everything? Also is it a walkable place or would u need car/ uber to get around? Also I read on the website that for mech eng there’s an internship option and there’s a summer program option, what’s the difference and which is better? Also how’s the cost of living there like? Sorry for the long post but I’d really appreciate the answerssssss

Edit: just for clarification, the scholarship was awarded to me as a prize at a scientific competition, so they didn’t get my stats nor did I go through the application process
Edit (again): can we please stop asking where I’m from and how I got the scholarship and try to answer my questions? If you don’t have answers js don’t reply.

I’m a 17 yo girl, have been overweight since 12 yo and always struggled with body image, I literally lived to eat it was like eating was the only thing that existed in this world till it hit me at the beginning of this year that graduation is near (I weighed 89 Kgs at the time) and I didn’t want to look fat in my graduation so I’d simply look up “skinny” or “weight loss” on TikTok just to make me motivated to lose weight, but that’s when I fell down the rabbit hole of the “pro-Ana nation” and to be honest at first I liked it, and I still like it, I’ve lost 17 kgs and the difference is very clear on my body. But it also affected my life quality soooo much, I stopped hanging out w my friends because they usually eat whenever they go out, people noticed that im not eating anymore, my parents would force me to eat sometimes and id force myself to throw up whatever they made me eat, my school performance declined from being a straight A student to not being able to pay attention in class at all.

After a while of js starving myself i switched up all of a sudden and went into BED, ended up gaining half the weight back, so I fell into an even worse habit of binging then throwing up on daily basis, my body is now stuck at 80 Kg.

I am writing this while literally shaking from the after math of forcefully throwing up, I got hospitalized twice ever since my whole ED started, i genuinely do not know what to do, sometimes i feel like i wanna stop binging and develop Ana or something similar js for the sake of losing all this weight. But then again I know that this is an illness and that i need serious help (my parents don’t believe in therapy or professional help :))

I honestly don’t even know why im writing here, i just feel like i need a way out of all of this, a way where I get a healthy body and healthy mind again because right now I’ve lost both.