u/getyoheat

I can not believe how good it works for calming these racing thoughts, I also got ADHD diagnosed some months ago and got prescribed all medications regarding aforementioned mental disorder. Strattera made me nervous af, Ritalin LA made me suicidal and the doctors stopped, trying out vyvanse as a last try. I tried nagging them and told them I wanted some relief from my symptoms (chaos in my mind) etc. and they got quite pissed about it, understandably so. At the end they revoked my diagnosis of ADHD. I was released with a mix of APs etc. I was at a rut, feeling like a shell of what I was. I was stubborn and tried consulting another doctor, he saw my old history with ADHD still on it and shook his head, and prescribed me vyvanse on the spot. He told me people underwent similar ways like me and vyvanse seems way more effective and treating the symptoms mentioned above. I started taking it and felt immense relief and motivation. But after some time I got typical signs of mania, and even though I am very introspective and careful but it was to late. I got very paranoid and pissed at everything, the whole shabang. I was in the psych ward again, feeling like shit, and they pumped me with haldol to get me under control, had intense SI. I was 1 month inside the closed station and had anosognosia. Three months passed and I got released again. Being a dumbass that I am I thought to myself fuck this shit and dropped my meds completely, besides sleep med. I crashed fucking hard and was very disoriented and a jumbled mess, also constant SI. I thought I fucked myself completely from the stimulant psychosis and was a goner. Before stopping the meds I told my shrink about it and got told, you certainly can manage your life without them, if it should get worse take the lithium at least. Well I've come to this point and started it again. One week passed and it's a lot calmer now, no regrets, racing thoughts, just pure level-headedness. I should have just listened to them instead and have trust in what they are doing. I will give college one last try and I swear to god I won't fuck it up this time.

TLDR: Was psychotic about having ADHD, fucked up by convincing another doctor to prescribe me vyvanse//got manic psychotic for the first time, turns out it really is schizoaffective/mainly bipolar. Don't think for yourself regarding the medication and trust the damn doctor's.

Fondle your balls.

But the peenar is still intact and ready to be milked.

But so did... the human 3D printer.

It would make more sense, if it would be elsewhere (easier clean up etc.)