u/ggcush

I'm hoping to find a good advice. I'm married to my husband for 4 yrs now, I just had our 2nd baby boy for a month and just found out he still watches porn (found it from his website searches and he even saved some pics on his hidden album on photos) when he plays even after he told me he stopped already last May. Its been months since we last had sex (before pregnancy and after) now I feel like because I gained weight from pregnancy that he wont even make love to me not until I lose and be back to my old petite body back.

I confronted him last night and he said he already repented from it and that he still loves me blah blah. But here I am, don't know what to feel anymore. What to do? Its not even the trust problem, i feel emotionally drifted, and I feel like my I'm in a fake marriage because I should deserve a marriage where I don't have to wonder whether I'm loved only when you meeta certain standard of attractiveness.

I'm hoping to find a good advice. I'm married to (32) my (39) husband for 4yrs now, I just had our 2nd baby boy for a month and just found out he still watches porn (found it from his website searches and he even saved some pics on his hidden album on photos) when he plays even after he told me he stopped already last May. Its been months since we last had sex before pregnancy and now I feel like because I gained weight from pregnancy that he wont even make love to me not until I lose and be back to my old petite body back.

I confronted him last night and he said he already repented from it and that he still loves me blah blah. But here I am, don't know what to feel anymore.