u/ghostsyipee

Hi, sorry if I make a few mistakes in my grammar I'm still recovering from an episode I had a moment ago.

Also TW for me sharing my symptoms

So, I have BPD, and 50% of borderlines have psychotic symptoms and episodes so really I didn't think much of it before. But I recently, it's been getting much more reccuring. It used to be a few times every like, 3 months or something, now it's been happening every few weeks, sometimes every week. They've also been getting more violent, for example >!the """entity"" that I saw regularly during those episodes have been like, morphing ? Evolving ? Idk how to say it but it became more and more terrifying by sightly changing it's appearance. My disorganized thinking became more obvious and I've been getting much more terrified during them too, not to mention the delusions where I feel like some kind of otherworldly entity is stalking me, seeing eyes staring at me when I close my eyes.!<

So my worry is that not only I've been getting much more as of recently, but they're also more terrifying and violent. I'm kind of in need of advice, on how to calm them down and maybe prevent them? Maybe this might be a tricky question so feel free to ignore this one but should I be worried of having another pathology than BPD ? (like schizophrenia or schizotypical disorder having a history of bipolar disorders in my family)

TL;DR : i have been getting more psychotic episodes and they're increasing in violence. Is there anything I can do to help myself ?

Ps : I do have antipsychotics but I'm on a very low dose for anxiety and sleep.

Hi, sorry if I make a few mistakes in my grammar I'm still recovering from an episode I had a moment ago.

Also TW for me sharing my symptoms

So, I have BPD, and 50% of borderlines have psychotic symptoms and episodes so really I didn't think much of it before. But I recently, it's been getting much more reccuring. It used to be a few times every like, 3 months or something, now it's been happening every few weeks, sometimes every week. They've also been getting more violent, for example >!the """entity"" that I saw regularly during those episodes have been like, morphing ? Evolving ? Idk how to say it but it became more and more terrifying by sightly changing it's appearance. My disorganized thinking became more obvious and I've been getting much more terrified during them too, not to mention the delusions where I feel like some kind of otherworldly entity is stalking me, seeing eyes staring at me when I close my eyes.!<

So my worry is that not only I've been getting much more as of recently, but they're also more terrifying and violent. I'm kind of in need of advice, on how to calm them down and maybe prevent them? Maybe this might be a tricky question so feel free to ignore this one but should I be worried of having another pathology than BPD ? (like schizophrenia or schizotypical disorder having a history of bipolar disorders in my family)

TL;DR : i have been getting more psychotic episodes and they're increasing in violence. Is there anything I can do to help myself ?

Ps : I do have antipsychotics but I'm on a very low dose for anxiety and sleep.

Tittle says it all... recently finished two jars of pickles and decided to keep the lots of remaining juice instead of throwing it away bu putting onions in one and tomatoes in another after looking up vegetables that can be pickled. Always wanted to try pickling cuz I'm like, a huge HUGE fan of pickles. So, any ideas ?

Okay so I don't really know if here is a right place to ask for help, but it's kinda the only thing in my mind.

So, to preface this, I am 19y old and have BPD and CPTSD. My best friend (we'll call her Elle) of 4 years and I had our first really violent argument. We're both heavily traumatized, talked about some pretty sensitive topics I won't site here, I split (BPD split not DID split, very different) , they seem out of it, talk like someone else... but I'm used to that. She and I have been wondering if she had DID for a while now, she very clearly shows systems and even "switched" once, but she wanted to avoid the self diagnosing so shejust kinda brushed it off and jokes about it sometimes. Her psychiatrist doesn't really believe in systems too so she can't get a diagnosis right now. Anyway, the argument goes on, I'm splitting really hard, curse her, block her. My boyfriend tries to talk to her and, she says "you don't actually know, and I don't know you, you probably expected to talk to someone else" and at one point they said "do you want me to bring out Elle who's sobbing in the corner of our conscience ?" Coming back to our argument, I realised they used "us" the entire time. It kinda just hit me as I recovered from the split that I insulted Elle thinking it was the one I'm used to talk to, insulting Elle specifically, not knowing I was talking to an entirely different person. It all made sense because during the argument I also told my boyfriend "it's the first time she's ever acted like that"

So yeah, that's awkward to ask but, I'd like some advice on how to apologize. While I do heavily disagree with the alter and the way they talked about me and my surrounding, I now know it wasn't Elle. I wish to apologize to her for blaming her specifically on this matter, making her cry in the corner of their conscience. Now it seems pretty much confirmed that there is a system, how can I support them the best ? I wish to become a better friend towards them and understand the disorder in a friend point of view. I'd be very happy to hear other system's advices to help them.

TL;DR : my best friend in denial about being a system has had an alter out themselves during an argument with me and I would like advice on how to be a better ally and friend to them now that I know of the disorder