u/gothicmuave

I hate my body. I have no energy to walk so when I do try to get to 10k steps its draining. Same with eating. I just found out granola isn't really something I should be eating if I want to lose weight.

Im just tired and I want to lose weight while also being healthy and happy. But it feels I can't choose both. I have to choose one.

I feel disgusting everywhere I go and I feel like I don't ever fit in. I want to be skinny and healthy. Not concerning skinny. But skinny where I'm happy and not even worried about my body more so worried about my health.

My Brain has its Pros and Cons I'm going to list and I would like for people to analyze them.

Pros
- good for socializing and net working.
Want to work in business and I have zero friends so...
- I can walk everywhere. Which is awesome. I don't think I'm a good driver

Cons
- It's so expensive there.
- I'm not skinny... and I have heard it's socially unacceptable.
( edit: this has been fixed thank you!)

All in all I want to have a life and thinking about new York.

I would also like either a horror Gothic or dark academia.
Please.