u/greenish98

I just wanna give a shout out to riseofthefallenone on AO3 !!

The Angel’s Wild fic is my favourite one ever. It’s literally like a comfort novel for me, I go back and re read it every now and then. It’s the kind of fanfic that I would want to have printed into a book to put on my shelf.

It’s slow burn, enemies to lovers. The AU that they made feels so magical. In this AU, angels are very different than in the show, and Dean is an angel hunter. And his next target happens to be Castiel, who is living alone in the woods.

This authour also has another fic, Out of the Deep. Another fantastic AU fic, where everyone is mer people instead.

I don’t wanna give out too many details in case anyone decides to read them, but oh my god they are so good. I love fanfiction but I don’t spend a lot of time engaging with it, so this authour is the only one whose name I know by heart because these fics are a part of me now.

It’s just the best. It’s so good. AAAAA

Angel’s Wild:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/775515/chapters/1458760

Out of the Deep:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/548878/chapters/977676

i had a relapse recently, for about a month, and today is my day one sober. it is such a reminder of how toxic weed is for my body.

my withdrawal gives me headaches, temperature swings, and nausea. i have thrown up 4-5 times today.

(gross paragraph)

it hit me unexpectedly in the shower so i was literally standing in puke water trying to unclog the shower drain afterwards. pure cinema. at least that had my breakfast in it. now i’m just puking bile. i hate everyone who says weed isn’t addictive, because these are the withdrawal symptoms after just one month of relapse

sitting with a hot water bottle on my stomach and hoping that’s the last of it. my tummy keeps roaring with its growls ugh!!!

today has been so long. that’s the first thing i get back when i’m sober, time. i wish this toxic comfort wasn’t so accessible. constantly being baited with my old harmful coping skill. it’s so easy to go back to it when i’m overwhelmed, but every time i use my new skills to cope i feel so proud of myself and i actually feel better instead of feeling nothing.

i should have pepto bismol soon. i can’t wait to finally fall asleep tonight 😭