u/grudgeZoxo

I am 28 born and raised in Tunisia 🇹🇳, due to past events in my life I suffered from same sex attraction now that I am 28 i would like to settle with someone, I never had any romantic experience with both genders and I would love to settle with a woman because its safer than hookup culture and the gay trap. My type is gen Z funny conservative with a bit of liberal touch. I am ready to relocate for the sake of love . I work full time and I don't want kids.

I grew up in a middle class family and witnessed traumatic events that caused significant distress especially through puberty.
Now that I am 29 , navigating therapy and trying to seek any strategies that can distract me from my rehearsing self loathing routine . I have severe OCD, social anxiety and chronic depression. I have been on meds for years still I am unable to move out of this. While everyone is dating and getting married I never got the opportunity to be in a relationship due to my same sex attraction and neurodivergence. I quit Islam since repeating verses on daily basis didn't do anything and felt like a parrot that kept reciting and hoping for a better life. Yet I still am ghosted by thee almighty. I still believe in god but I do jot follow any religion, and I do not need any religious advice at this point and with all due respect.
Anyone dealing with the same issues somewhere.. helllooo ... anyone ... anything?