Hii, I’m (F22) going to be attending the Boiler Room show in LA on Sept 26th. As of right now I’m going alone :p but I was wondering if any other solo goers would want to meet up! I’ve never been to a Boiler Room show and don’t know what to expect 😸.
My ex boyfriend of 7.5 years admitted to gaslighting me and lying about the last 6 months of our relationship. He strung me along knowing he wasn’t fully present in our relationship and never seriously expressed it to me. He blindsided me with a breakup first thing one morning and gave me 15 minutes of conversation and shitty explanation to wrap up 1/3 of our lives together. I find out 2 days later that he’s been seeing a teenager from his internship that he’s known for 2 weeks. I’m sick, physically ill. No self respect, either of them. We were still living together, I’m confident that he cheated on me. To make things harder on me, he gave me 30 days to move out (of a home he doesn’t own and we both pay rent). He even threatened to draw up a legal contract to ensure I move out within those 30 days; how incredibly sterile and insensitive can one be? Shortly after, he demanded that I move out in 5 days and completely went back on his word. He was absolutely disgusting and cruel in his delivery, I have never felt so discarded and disrespected in my life. What grown man decides to flip on their long term partner that they were just discussing marriage and babies with to go be with a teenager they just met. He is truly the most disgusting individual I have ever met. He harbored so much resentment towards me for no reason at all. The day I moved out, he used his lunch break to come home solely to antagonize me (he admitted this). He randomly started gathering mementos from our relationship throughout the years and stuffed them into a garbage bag, he didn’t even throw it away, he just left the garbage bag out and visible in the house. I threw it in the dumpster on my way out because I genuinely do not care that he wants to act like we were never together. I’m flattered that my memory and existence is so bothersome that he feels the need to throw fits almost daily. This was the first time I have seen him during the day since we broke up because he had been avoiding me like the plague and coming home at midnight every night. I have endured so much over the years and truthfully, he was never going to be enough for me. He takes and never gives. I’m sick I allowed myself to be treated so poorly for so long. I thought the absolute world of him and it’s so unfortunate to realize the person I envisioned a future with was just an idealized projection of him. He continued to lie to me even after the relationship was over. His teenage girlfriend blocks and unblocks my instagram to go through my page. Leave me alone. I never would’ve guessed that he is (still) capable of this type of behavior but I really shouldn’t be surprised because he’s done this to me before, numerous times. He is also enabled by his mother which is just yuck. When I reflect I fail to remember what value I saw in him when we were together, he truly did nothing for me at all. I feel silly honestly but I’m incredibly relieved to finally be free of him. He didn’t steal my youth (I’m in my early twenties) and I am very happy that I will have deeper loves after him, sincere loves. I’m choosing to be grateful for his disgusting disrespect and blatant disregard for me; for the first time, I see him exactly as he is.
I’m just venting.
Cabernet & Parmesan cheese with a side of spaghetti:-).