Selfish ba ako?
So my partner tested positive for HIV.
Lowkey, I was the one to blame kasi ako nag suggest na mag open relationship kami since LDR kami.
I have been trying to support him from far away. Nagkita lang kami last month sa Thailand.
Now, my partner is avoidant. He has been pushing me now and then kapag he’s having a bad time. The worst thing is he will do it and make me overthink na may ginawa akong mali, then he will now communicate with me. Bigla nalang syang di sasagot, ako naman mangungulit kasi nag aalala ako sa kanya.
Okay naman ako to support eh. Di na nabibigyan pansin yung problems ko kasi nakafocus ako sa kanya so pag may concern ako, solo nalang.
Of course concern ako sa kanya. Pero I can see myself resenting him everytime na may nangyayari sa kanya making him sad tapos bigla nya ako ighoghost. Instead of him allowing me to stay or informing me that he is not in the shape, he will just keep me at bay.
I dont wanna leave him kasi i know difficult part to ng buhay nya and we have plans. But man, naiiyak nalang ako minsan. Di ko alam gagawin ko.
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