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So I’ve been doing some research, because even though it worked fine a week ago, now I can’t sync my iPod or my iPhone to my iTunes on my PC. I don’t personally care for Apple Music, I use iTunes. I like to upload CDs and my own files, for instance. I know that Apple Music is supposed to have functionally replaced iTunes, but I haven’t had any issues with this until recently. I tried clearing iTunes and Apple Devices from my PC and downloading them again, but they seem like they won’t work together now. Am I missing something simple here?

So I’m not sure where to come with all of this; I’ve been in and out of therapy much of my life. This is, to my mind, a positive thing. My parents love me very much whatever our disagreements and have always supported me through this, for which I’m very grateful. I’ve been through about 4-5 therapists so far and have finally hit on one who really “clicks” with me whom I like very much a few years ago. The trouble is, our progress has really stalled lately. I have Asperger’s, high-functioning autism, whatever it’s called these days. I’ve had this, comorbid with a few other things-depression, ADHD, OCD, anxiety-my whole life. In a recent session, my therapist was….not frustrated exactly, but pragmatic, suggesting that I look into a new therapist who specializes in and has more experience with autism spectrum disorders. I’m finding impossible to make changes in my life at nearly 40. I’m stuck living at home with parents (My mother and I are much too codependent.) working a dead-end job. The job pays. Not well, but it pays, so I make my own money. I get good insurance through it. I see a lot of doctors, including my therapist and a psychiatrist. So I’m not some manchild who sits at home and plays video games all day. I’m also a caregiver for my sick father with Parkinson’s disease, with my mom. I work, and show up on time and in uniform every day despite how bitterly miserable my job makes me. I make my own money, and I drive a car that I’m currently paying for, as well as the insurance for it. I have some friends in real life-a small circle, but I have some-so I’m not antisocial, and am part of a few online communities. I have major problems with intimacy and sexuality, but that’s a whole other topic.

Short version, I’m not against the advice that my therapist has at all. I think that it’s a good idea. I genuinely don’t believe that my current therapist is angry or upset. I think that she’s challenging me and trying to help. That’s her job. But I really like her and don’t want to lose her and start over with someone either. I understand that our relationship is professional, but there is a degree of emotional attachment on my part. Maybe that’s not healthy, but talking to her every week has become a big part of my life and our rapport and relationship is very important to me. I guess I’m not sure what to do. I’m thinking a lot about attending both, but finances aside, would that be healthy? Or overload? I really don’t know what to do here, and I’m kind of just looking for some advice. I understand that this is all designed to help me, but I freak out when I have to take a different day off than usual at work, at the smallest little change. I don’t know what to do about one this size.