u/hellrazorxoxo

Has anybody tried identifying with the mask instead of
resisting it?

I am beginning to notice a pattern whereby I commit crime out of frustration rather than necessity.

When I was younger, I spent four years in prison. Post-release I kept my impulsivity under control and even got a job working at an international newspaper on the terrorism desk.

After a bad relationship, I collapsed. Now I am finally getting out of bed, I am committing many different crimes.

Is this something anybody else here experiences? My outward facing presentation is pretty normal.

I’m certainly not living on Skid Row and most who know me know me as a genial and generous person, never short of money.

I never recognised this destructive impulsivity for what it was before. It’s a loss of control emotionally manifest criminally.

I used to just thoughtlessly act. Now I still act, but the fog is lifting a little and I am recognising where it’s blowing in from.

I’m pretty high in antisocial traits, diagnosed NPD, then later Antisocial PD in prison. All of my friends growing up were serious criminals. My last remaining friend obviously has NPD (or he wouldn’t be friends with me!) I have a hard time not making everything about myself and monologuing, but I’m getting better. Every time I talk to this guy I get annoyed because of how difficult he is. And the silent treatment is really frustrating. In a way, I’m glad to have him because he’s helping me learn how not to be. But goddamn he sucks. He talks endlessly about his interests, brings everything back to himself, straight up ignores me when I talk about things I am interested in, and is forever trying to teach me things. Part of me can’t stand him, another part is worried cutting him off will sever my last friendship and leave me completely untethered, without supply. At 31 having no friends is truly daunting! I used to be quite aggressive around him and he was pretty submissive. Since I’ve become more aware I have intentionally assumed a submissive role to keep the relationship going, but it’s pretty exhausting. Do any of you struggle to interact with people who also have untreated NPD and why?

If there’s any OC group in the States save for the cartels that didn’t shy away from murder, it’s the Outfit. They were arguably the most brutal Italian OC group in the US, even. So why didn’t they finish the job, especially after the film? The same goes for Cullotta.

Watched the STS-75 video. Is it theoretically possible for non biological life forms to exist in the actual vacuum of space and not on planets or asteroids?

does anyone have the old jftab tabs backed up?