u/helpwha

What the title says. If someone has had enough close calls to shifting, it's me. I've gone so deep into meditation so many times, I've had so many spiritual experiences, so many dreams, etc....

I took a break for two months because I've lost all energy, and while I'm trying to get back, I'm struggling to believe it's real even though I have enough evidence from personal experience to convince myself other wise. I'm so so so lost. I'm freaking out because I really do mean it when I say my life depends on it. I don't understand why everytime I'm about to meditate I give up and think "what if it's not real" like I'm aware of how irrational that is.

Anyway, my case is weird, everything is weird. I hate it here. Hope someone can offer me some advice or stare their shifting experience to give me a slither of hope

Now hear me out, I fully agree with the fact that all you need to shift is simply intention, and despite the ''blockages'' you have you can still shift.

But from what've seen on this subreddit is that people aren't fully comprehending what that entails.

The shift itself is effortless, i've seen many shifters describe it like you just switched channels, and boom, you're in your DR. but I think there needs to be effort put in pre-shift,, as annoying as it is. that effort can look many different ways, it can be learning how to let go of the idea that ''oh i need to shift'' or calming down your own mind, getting into a meditative state, learning to set the intention, how to trust yourself, etc...

I just think it's so fucked up that this is so widely spread, again like the misinformation in 2020 about clones and all that other bs. If you want something you gotta put in effort, doesn't matter what it is.

Personally I scripted things for both me and my partner and closest people (bc i don't want my loved ones to struggle w annoying small things)

that we NEVER get any stomach issues no matter what we eat or where we are, everything is nice and smooth and healthy.

Everytime I'm going shopping I find the most perfect pieces/things.

Mascara never smudges and can hold up for days

That there is a spray that neutralizes the odor of weed, so i can smoke before work if i get too stressed

I have a small device that is basically a portable router

My sweat only smells like me (in the best way possible, idk how else to word it) and sometimes not at all

I never sweat unless i'm working out or training

My devices never run out of battery unless i'm at home

climate crisis is very contained and mega coorpirations are heavily regulated and punished severly if they do something to harm it

sunsets and sunrises are 5x as gorgeous in my DR

>!me and my partners ''urge to use the toilet'' does NOT smell, the urge only comes at the most convient private times and only when we're alone. And everytime i wipe it's clean.!<

Would love to hear some of your funny/helpful scripts

So I've tried to research this but I never got to a clear answer.

Everytime i'm trying to shift awake, my heart geniuenly start beating so fast to the point where it's physically aching and my body gets so hot everytime I feel my DR and CR merge together. Like I'm THIS close to fully shifting. It is sort of worrying, ignoring this exact symptom is hard when it becomes painful. I'm doing the pupeteer method with a lot vizualization.

I just need to know if I should continue trying to awake shift or just start doing sleep methods. Any tips?