Did it backfire?
I know. Spells don't backfire. At least this is what everyone says around here. But I have very good reasons to disagree and I may actually need help.
Three days ago, I did a hex/sour jar. I won't elaborate, but its purpose was pain, anger and despair, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
However, since then, I feel like I am suffering from these effects instead of the target. The day after the spell (Wednesday), I was feeling very disappointed and sad for no apparent reason. Yesterday (Thursday), my body started hurting out of nowhere (more specifically the center of my upper back) and I can't move properly. Later that day, I had a call from my sibling telling me our mom had a f*cking stroke! THANK GOD she's actually fine, at the hospital of course, but fine for now. When I spoke with her, she actually told me that the day before she was feeling so sad (coincidence?) after a conversation she had with my sibling. We believe this is what triggered the stroke, but anyway.
It's almost 05:00 in the morning as I am writing this and about an hour ago, I had a small crisis out of anger because the neighbor upstairs (yes, that b*tch who's the target of my hex jar) was banging on every f*cking thing she could in her apartment. She was so f*cking loud that I snapped and started banging my doors so f*cking hard that I scared my poor husband, who panicked and now can't sleep again. I feel horrible for what I did to him, but I just couldn't help it! I am actually still shaking!
As you can see, all of this is very good evidence that the spell backfired. But it doesn't matter whether we agree on that or not. What matters is: What now?
PS: I just realised I didn't clean the surface after the spell. There are still a few things left on the table. Maybe I should have been more thorough and cleaned everything as soon as I finished the spell. I'll do that first thing in the morning and burn some sage.