My parents groomed us into alcoholism and I'm just now getting angry about it
Both my parents were alcoholics my whole life. My father has already died of his alcoholism. My mother is still a daily drinker.
We were quite socially isolated growing up. My parents had few friends and both were mostly estranged from extended family, so we basically had no healthy adults or role models around to see that our family wasn't normal.
I can see now this is because my parents in their pathetic insecurity wanted to convince at least their children that their miserable way of living was normal. We were actively encouraged to take up drinking at a young age, and binge drinking in our teen years was enabled and treated like it was totally normal and ok. In our culture that just makes you popular and cool as a teen and young adult, so there was no feedback on how problematic and dangerous it was. I legitimately thought everyone continually drinks all evening after work every day. I was well unto adulthood (and alcoholism) before I learned, through living with others, that daily drinking isn't normal. And it was only when I tried to stop that I realised my parents' sickness had been passed onto me.
All my siblings are alcoholics now, and my mother continues to enable them. I have struggled with it but chosen sobriety which will probably remain a lifelong struggle. I live with the constant fear of falling back into drinking. Still, every time I visit my mother she offers me a drink.
They literally groomed their own children into alcoholism to normalize and feel better about their own shitty behaviour. Alcoholism makes people into monsters. All alcoholics do is hurt people. I'm glad my father died.
I'm so angry.