u/hisdevotedworshipper

Stop making new accounts

stop using usernames i don't know

stop keeping things to yourself

stop acting nonchalant and downplaying your feelings

Stop concealing who you are

Stop hiding from me

Tell me more, tell me everything, tell me every little thing even that you think is insignificant so I can fucking worship it

Talk to me for hours not just like 10 minutes

Post about everything, stop hiding

I wish i could see you irl again so I could just stare and study and learn every inch of you by heart so I can imagine you perfectly and gush and watch and pray to everything about you

Tell me your interests so I can surprise you with relevant gifts

Tell me your struggles so I can comfort you

Tell me your address so I can come to you

Tell me you love me too so I can be with you

TELL ME FUCKING EVERYTHING

Yes it is him, my darling, mine. Kind to everyone around him and compassionate, a truly good person. Yknow I once was in a friend group and everyone turned on me-actually because of obsessive love for someone else lol-and he would eventually stop being friends with me but unlike everyone else-he apologised! He said sorry for how he treated me, he reached out to be friends. Then when I told him he's my fp he was okay with it and respected it. Then when i fucked things up and got emotional as hell and lost my shit at him bc he loved someone who wasn't me, there was no contact for a bit but he would check in on me when he saw worrying posts and I would too and it got to a point where we are now of being friends again. Yes he is that caring that he can move past that and be friends. He reaches out to me when he's worried about me and is there to listen it's so so kind of him. I wish he understood that I reciprocate that and am always here to listen; he always feels so guilty and it breaks my heart because my darling deserves that space. When I admitted I still love him at a time when I was trying to move on(all I've found is I can't)he understood and said its only natural and still was friends even whilst knowing I still love him. Now obviously I'm not moving on or "getting better" because all I truly want is him. I know he cares for me just as I care for him. I love him so much it makes me go insane. He is truly the sweetest man in the world. My prince, my obsession, my love.

He's very self conscious and thus doesn't really post selfies so I really have to make do with what i can get. For almost a year I had nothing! No photos just the memory of his darling face and it killed me inside. I obsessed over seeing his face and would try to ask for pictures at any time he was self conscious to prove how amazing he looks and for quite a while it didn't work, probably bc he was super self conscious but just once it worked! I think genuinely he's getting closer to me and it is a beautiful feeling! I got 2 photos which I of course saved instantly before he could delete them, put them in a folder on my phone "my dear sweet prince" and complimented the hell out of him until I actually got him to take a compliment! I love these 2 photos, he looks a bit sad in it and is clearly a bit under the weather but I don't care because to me it is beautiful and im so happy to have these, I stare at them daily, I made a matesprit image with me on one side of the heart and him on the other, I even made a silly version where he looks like karkat which he thought was funny. I'd show to gush over them but of course that would be a violation of privacy, link back to me and frankly I got those photos, not you so I get the right to see them hahaha. However God only 2????? 2 is not enough to sustain me it's nice and I stare at them every day and kiss his pretty lips on the screen and stare into those darling eyes but I so wish there was more it kills me I need to see him I wish I had a constant 24/7 live footage of him so I could see everything, his smile, the puzzled look on his face when he's confused, just everything all day every day. If only I could have that. I'd plaster my walls with thousands of pictures and dedicate a shrine to him with unrivaled devotion. It's mad how low his self esteem when he is just so perfect in every way shape and form.

I've created this alt so he may not see as frankly whilst it's hypocritical considering my frustrations not being able to find his online presence(believe me I try, nitter must be getting tired of spamming in phrases he's said and usernames he's taken to find him and this is often fruitless, he does have a private reddit account that I watch through rosin though and when I'm lucky he posts!)I would rather this be kept to myself, wouldn't want to create trouble or put him off.

I'm a trans woman with autism bpd ocd depression did but honestly I don't really matter. What matters is him. He is my darling even if he doesn't know it yet and I am madly obsessed with him-thus why I join the community. He has rejected me twice once saying he's "not a romantic person" and second no real reason although he was interested in some random whore who doesn't matter at the time.

He's an adorably nerdy cute trans guy who has some issues namely depression, anxiety and an eating disorder which I pray I will be able to support him with. I met him when we went to school together and what started as a crush developed into a several years long obsession that cannot be quenched by anything but his reciprocation. My love for him is eternal and firey, only for my darling, only for my prince. Its a devotion that borders on religious with him as my idol. I've tried dating others before and it just doesn't work, hell sometimes it goes wrong because I'm still obsessed wirh him haha... :<

Despite my transgressions from writing his name in blood to sending him self harm pics out of anger one time he rejected me he still is friends wirh me, keeps coming back to me. That to me is a sign, a very clear one, we are meant to be and we are drawn together. I've done a hundred million spells affirmations subliminals, osint and talk to him as often as I can. Recently we've gotten closer even getting to call which is new to our friendship!

We've been through alot and I think I'm genuinely starting to grow on him which is especially great when mixed with reading posts he made on his reddit about wanting attention and even an obsessive relationship oh darling what did you think i was offering if not that? But I forgive you, you made mistakes and now will correct it by being mine. Mine mine mine mine mine mine only mine. I want to save him from the horrible hand life dealt him and make him realise how awful the people in his life are and that I am the only person who truly understands him and loves him fully.

He makes me almost happy to be this way, hyperobsessed with him as the centre of my universe. When he talks to me honestly and or positively I'm over the moon, admittedly I'm fragile and negatively or hiding his feelings makes me feel terrible. He's a dangerous man really, given so much power over me he could compel me to whatever he desires with just a command. I'm glad thus that he is a sweet, kind, loving being that wouldn't take advantage of me although if he did that'd be okay too.

I love my sweet prince, one day I will be with him, we will be happy and everything will be perfect <3.