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Idk why but somehow I was reading first time sucking cock experience and since then I have been hooked. I can feel like I’m actually there doing the deed but when I actually see a gay porn stuff I don’t get turned on. But when I see a women sucking a cock it makes it easier to watch it and want to try it.
I don’t find the same sex attractive like that at all. So it’s a weird thing I been experiencing for several years now. Anyone go through this ?

I know there’s gonna be a lot of questions and judgment asking this online since I can’t explain every detail but I’ll try to keep it simple.

I can’t complain much about life honestly. Had a good childhood and teenage years. Way taller(6’4) but might not be the best or ugliest looking lol

After hs and getting a job that’s mostly men,
I was never really around women anymore. Sure I made out with couple of girls but that’s about it. I had opportunity to have sex at 19 but I didn’t like the girl like that so it felt I was faking it just to do it.

I have awesome friends who would always invite me out but I always had an excuse since I didn’t at the age 20ish like the party lifestyle and I never really drink alcohol at all. Maybe I was just coping with being a virgin.

I don’t have any social media or even tried to do the online dating apps at all. I just kept with my routine which was work, go play in my men’s league bi weekly and really stay to myself

No one knows this about me. Not my family members or even friends at least that’s what I suspect since they have seen me with girls in the past but who knows they are all married now

Basically time flew by fast!!! And being a virgin really kept me away from life itself and now I wonder do I tell my future partner about this ? I think no one would believe me or think something is seriously wrong with me

I think I shouldn’t say anything but don’t want to lie completely about it but still at this age it’s kinda sad lol

Sounds crazy but I somehow managed to get here in my point of life without ever being in a romantic relationship. After graduation and my job in retail , I was never really around girls again. And didn’t use or have social media. Can explain my whole life to this point so feel free to ask me anything at all.

I want to build a putting green was hoping someone here has some inputs or suggestions.

I have a reel mower and just want to know what kind of seed I should get for Langley area. Thanks