u/hope11ess

My class teacher had made my mother sign a paper that if I failed in even a single subject of Periodic Test 1, I wouod be sent back to 11th class. And, I'm pretty sure I failed in atleast Physics, and likely failing in maths and chemistry aswell.

I can't go back, my mother raised me alone and worked tirelessly to pay off every fees of this entire year. So if they send me back..

I'm definitely considering just killing myself to be honest. Grab some pills, overdose on them maybe. I don't know, whatever it is depends on my school I guess. I just don't want to deal with any more of this.

The "Char" Will Say "And There It Is."

We, yes WE are all Kaguraparents. WE are expecting Kagurabachi.

Did he just.. put up a fighting stance? I can't wait to see what samura will do to fare against Akemura!

Based on a theory video I saw about the other side of the lake, about how it kept getting paler and paler, and that the bread crumbs given by sans is a refrence to where ness is from if I remember correct, where it can perform a glitch to go out of bounds, and wouldn't you know, that out of bounds is completely greyscale, and the grass looks very similar to the "evil" place seen in the mancountry scope..

So, hey, who knows, maybe we'll get to finally meet our vessel, maybe that's where it's been all this time, it is where "garbage" data is supposed to be stored afterall.

(Also have mercy, this is my first ever comic, if it can even be called that lol)

Im deltaruning ohhh I'm deltaruining while Kaguraing my bachi so hard

Anyways, DELTARUNE TOMMROWWW!!!!!‼️‼️‼️

(Also this image is the answer to the deltarune arg thingy)

HOLY FUCKING GOATTT I LOVE YOU TAKERU MY GOD THIS IS SO GOOODDDDDDD HES DRAINING ME AND THE INK AT THE SAME TIME, AND IM STILL NOT FINISHED WITH THE CHAPTER, AHH!!

I had a three month relationship last year, and an 8 month friendship this year, both that I cherished so much, and yet both broke down because of the same reason, even though I tried different options, but neither ever gave me any real resolution or comfort, I don't understand.

In my past relationship, it was the first time I fell in love, and the first time anyone ever showed me care and love, for a time anyway. I was already overly attached, I loved her to death, but she wasn't ready for a relationship, but she didn't know that when she confessed to me. Everytime, despite how much I loved her, did everything she asked, did anything to spend time with her, as the days went on, she distanced herself from me more and more, even if she was available, free, right there, I would become more of a background character or someone she'd ignore entirely despite being in a relationship, and I couldn't handle it.

This is where I tried to communicate, I tried to tell her how I felt, that how much I felt attached, how much I'd feel jealous of others, how much I felt, but it just never to came to anything. No matter how much I wanted to communicate, and even at a point I asked her if we were still in a relationship, where could've atleast said no, that it's over, but it never came, she just said she'll think about it and didn't answer, just kept me like this. I know she was stressed, from her own things, and I just added to that, but why couldn't she have just talked, answered, or atleast ended things herself? Regardless, eventually when I just couldn't hold it in anymore, I was the one to end the relationship, she reached out, asked why, I answered, but it didn't fix how I felt, and I blocked her eventually.

As for my friendship, it was similar. I slowly grew attached to her, talked to her every single day, I had no other friend I talked to like the way I'd talk to her, how much fun we would have. Although she was also not the greatest, I hate way she made me feel, the things she'd say and do, but unlike my relationship I just kept it bottled in this time, I didn't say anything because I thought she would leave. And once again, it stayed bottled in until I couldn't hold it in anymore. This time I didn't even let the two of us talk, I just told her everything in big paragraphs, sent her everything that I was bottling inside, and told her to hate me and never talk to me again, because I really did care for our friendship, and her, and maybe her hating me would help me get over it somehow. I didn't communicate, I just shut it down abd didn't talk to her again.

And now, that I'm all alone, self isolating, I can't help but remember both, I can't help but not understand why, when I talked things out, I was just ignored, felt like I wasn't supposed to express how I feel. And the second time when I did just that in my friendship, that ended like this aswell.

What was I supposed to do? How was I supposed to act? Why does nothing work out, I tried both, I tried but at the same time I don't know what I didn't try. I just don't understand, and now I'm remembering all of this while I'm already stressed out about my exams and I can't bear it, it's so much all at the same time, they're all so happy without me, or something, I don't know. I just want to be happy, I font even want to make friends because I don't want to suffer all of that again. I don't understand.

I was genuinely giggling drawing Akemuras face dude he looks so fucking goofy lmaooo

Cheerio you hurt your uncle so much :( why are you like this, death by malediction

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And there it is.. TOXIC YOAI!! hehehe also, what's the name of this ship anyway? Hiruhiko x Chihiro, HiruHiro??

I already really wanted to make this because I ship them quite a bit, and also because u/Frosumisnotmyname asked, so I hope you like it :]

I am enjoying drawing Yoai for the first time alot lmaoo

Yes her cuteness only makes me angrier at the miakboshi, PLEASE AKEMURA slime the goverment✌️✌️

Was randomly scrolling through my old acc and saw these. It's been so long, where did they go??

https://x.com/brkagurabachi/status/2056039102294728891?s=20

I wish taco sensei a good recovery, give this man as long of a rest as he needs, we love you sensei🙏🙏

"hope"

Brimmed coco my goat please manifest with this artwork

also FINALLY. this drawing took me so damn long. usually they're like 3-6 hrs, SOMEHOW THIS WAS 27 HOURS?? God I'm exhausted. but I do love it.

me when the me when I forget the me when the I forget spoiler

I'll go out of my way to admit that half of this was born out of jealousy, and half of how I felt treated, and how much I had to change myself to fit her idea of a good friend.

it's just really hard to know if I did the right thing or not, and maybe some word could help. I don't know.

For context of the jealousy part first, we've been best friends for about 8 months. our friendship started right as she helped me get out of a toxic relationship with my now ex, and when I had no one else and since I admittedly stay at home almost all day, I spent hours on end with her, chatting, texting, calling, and the very thing we first bonded over, and met, was playing games.

being lonely basically my whole life and feeling ignored by everyone, I opened up more and more, everytime she said to stay a bit longer would turn into playing games and calling all night. this was my everyday at this point, and honestly I'd gotten attached, which has always been the source of my problem.

She would constantly say how without me she would miss me so much, how she couldn't play the game without me at all, and would call me all the time, and yeah, I felt happy, so happy. but as time went on, that went less and less. I tried ignoring it, but so many days she would just forget about me, leave me while having fun with other friends for hours. and I know that's not wrong, it's just, after everything all I felt was constantly becoming the second option and being put aside.

it didn't help she loves to show screenshots of her having fun with new friends, specially her online friend, who at this point she would chat with all night, play with all night, all while ignoring me. anytime I'd tell her that hey I want to play, she'd say she's busy, never inviting me anymore either. everytime I asked her about it, she would say ohh I wanted to play with you too and just move on with her day. that's the part I hate the most. she kept giving me hope that she really did want to play, and I hoped that she meant that. but nope, it never came.

this was supposed to be the last week I could play, I told her that, because I'd be giving my most important exams in a few months so I'd have to study. I told her that I'd be happy to atleast have my final week playing and enjoying with her, which she completely agreed to, and how she was excited for it. but you can guess, nothing happened. that's what lead to me having a final argument.

and as for treatment, she would constantly call me an idiot if I didn't know something, if I couldn't remember something (btw she knows I'm weak with those things considering my literal childhood trauma but still proceeds to shame me for it).

she never apologises for anything, if she doesn't like something she'll accuse me that I'm not acting right. if she's angry, she'll ghost me and I used to be the one apologising. if there's anything ever against her, she'll immediately victimise herself and make me out to be the one in the wrong.

I think it was just all of these that fueled my argument more. I probably should've ended things for a better reason, but I really just could not take any of this anymore, my heart keeps hurting and if I didn't tell her how these made me feel, I'd probably be sitting here acting like a dumbass for another five years.

I feel really bad for this, I don't want to hurt her, but I don't want to take any of this anymore either. and she called me childish for arguing about this anyway, so. I don't know. I just know this isn't what I want. and I regret it so much but I needed it so much. I just want to be alone.

Nothing much, I think? Just saw it and wanted to post it here.

I spent hours on this please updoot