First of all tysm for the love on my last post !!!
sorry She's in a lame pose it's cuz she's a sprite for my game that I will finish...ummmmmmmmmmm....one day
She's in a trauma bond with her abuser Who is also her doctor........... A very complicated situation. she's really stupid and I love her ok bye
wow so moe
I've always been visibly mentally and physically ill, specifically with contamination OCD...and my physical issues? well, nobody really cared about that. Kids would make fun of me for my OCD,touching my stuff and watching me wash it over and over again like i was programmed to. The first therapist I had,(about 9)I told her I had to wash my hands over and over again,repeatedly.. and she kind of just brushed it off. Although it's always been obvious,I never really knew what it was called until I turned about 12 and had a major OCD spiral. My doctor told me I had OCD,and I didn't really understand what it meant,so I just went with it. At this point,my OCD wasn't good,but I went to school and did good in school, so nobody really..noticed, I guess. It wasn't until grade 9,and I couldn't go to school anymore, and I was like, ..Holy shit I'm really mentally ill... I actually have a disorder.
My doctor prescribed me my first meds,and oh my days, they were awful. I was tired all the time.. sleeping all day.. my doctor kept giving me medication that didn't work for me,and kind of just ignored all my concerns about them,so we decided to get a psychiatrist. Thankfully,my psychiatrist is great,and I'm now on 2 different medications for my OCD and psychosis.
My OCD got a lot better,although I'm still not going to school. As it got better,I started to realize I have a lot of health issues. A big issue was that I'm not actually female. Which I thought I was my whole life,but nope, I'm just afab intersex. I told my doctor about my health issues..mental health issues.. all that stuff. His response was that I was overweight, and all my issues would be fixed if I was skinny ! He even went so far as to say that I wouldn't be on any medications - I wouldn't be suicidal - I wouldn't have OCD - I wouldn't have psychosis - I wouldn't have periods so heavy they landed me in the hospital,the list goes on,if I was skinny.
I was sobbing in his office as he lectured me on how "I'm not disordered,I'm just overweight." It was the most insulting thing I have ever heard. He thought I was crying because I was told to lose weight,when in reality, that's the least of my worries. I genuinely couldn't care less about that;what bothers me is the fact that he dismissed all my issues because of it.
My doctor won't help me at all with any of my medical issues and dismisses my mental ones. I ended up in the hospital because I lost so much blood from my periods that I couldn't walk anymore. I've been telling him my periods are abnormal for 7 years,and I've been told "it's because of my age" "it'll work itself out" "it's because you're overweight"
I went to a gynecologist, and well. I have PCOS... so that was not accurate !
I'm going to see my gynecologist for more of my health issues this week.. i will update if I can