u/iamreal9999

the only people i [barely] connect with are those weirdos, loners, and the outcasts (dont worry i consider myself one too). they all have obvious and diagnosed conditions from autism to bpd to mdd etc. hell, i even attended a couple of munches (kinky people meetups).

100% of the time, it melts my mind when i see them interact with others normally and with chemistry. I thought my interactions with them 1 on 1 were pretty decent until i see them interact with others that i really see how ridiculous my social level is. i just think "what the actual fuck?" as i stare blankly as they blissfully interact with each other.......and im stuck as the observer third wheel......again.......like always.

i say this a nuerotyp. goes to show differences in neurology(is this the right term? physiology maybe?) doesnt guarantee anyone to not have chemistry with normies

Ive talked to hundreds of people irl and online. Most are instant ghosts to a few days convos. If im lucky it will be a few weeks.

The good ones.....around 3-4 people....last a few months to a year till they eventually find someone better and forget about me. Right now, im sitting at """1""" friend count.

Shes cool and all but she knows i hurt myself bad and went to hospitals. Now she doesnt reply after i try to reach out with a lot of msgs. Been two days. Ohh and she also found a better more interesting guy. So i guess the pattern is almost complete.

How are you guys? Stay safe

Where was this "care" when i was in distress all my life and nothing was done? more like pity.

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even if listened, we all know it'll be forgotten in a month. It happens in mental wellness spaces too like these subreddits or irl support groups. Thats why i always roll my eyes when people offer only after the fact.

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it was never about being listened to. Its about being understood, cared for, and chosen.