u/idkwhenwas

17 here! got diagnosed 3 months ago before my birthday. I’m taking ARV naman na the day after I got diagnosed, but ang lalim talaga ng isip ko kapag wala akong ginagawa. You might recommend na gumawa ako ng iba’t ibang bagay para malibang at makalimutan ko, that doesn’t work a lot. After that, maaalala ko pa rin naman s’ya kasi habang buhay ko na dala dala tong katangahan ko. Gustong gusto ko magpalipad ng eroplano pero ngayon, wala na akong pag asa dahil sa sakit ko. Hays, apaka malas ko. BIKTIMA LANG AKO, LORD! 😭

hello! almost 3 months na ako nag memeds but there’s something bothering me rn hehe. hindi naman ako inuubo but i feel like may ubo ako kasi dahil sometimes nauubo ako and mag 1 week na rin. hindi naman malala na parang kada sampung minuto uubo, parang mild lang ba kumbaga. sign of pneumonia ba or i need to observe it more? kasi i feel like dahil to sa pagligo ko agad palagi pag uwi ko galing school like wala pang 10 minutes maliligo pa ako na may medyo may pawis pa. let me know thanks!!!

Just had a conversation with my classmates earlier. Grade 12 lang ako, and somehow we take sxual jokes as literally jokes I just hate it when something reminds me that I have it. My classmate asked “Nagpapapwet ka?” Oo, I replied. Yung isa kong classmate nakisali, sabi nya “bading ka hahaha” although alam ko anman na joke yun since out ako pero nainis ako sa sinunod nyang sabi na “edi may hiv ka?” na may pagka ew, uneducated person, matalino naman sya. Hirap lunukin talaga kapag nareremind sa akin na ganon na nga, alam ko naman na hindi nya alam since walang nakakaalam at di ko pinagsasabi, nalulungkot lang ako biglaan how the people react to us and they somehow discriminate us. Sakit, 17 pa lng ako nagkasakit na agad ako ng ganito. Ang tanga tanga ko. 3 months na ako nag gagamot btw.

almost 2 months na po ako nagtatake ng ARV, but today i feel something sa taas ng belly button ko and i think it’s my liver. hindi naman sya makirot pero may something akong nararamdaman kapag nagalaw masyado at kapag natawa. huhu i can’t afford na masira liver ko since di rin alam ng family ko kung anong tinetake ng liver ko. ayoko na dumagdag sa problema, may hiv na nga ako, masisira pa liver ko. TLD nga po pala iniinom ko

is this because of hiv? been taking ARV for 1 month simula nong nadiagnose ako. is it a symptom still showing or because of my TB meds? mamantika din kasi kinakain ko. sabi kasi ng case manager ko baka raw mangati ngati ako while taking TB meds, but hindi naman ako nangangati. it’s just nagkakabutlig butlig ako sa neck, shoulders, and chest. sa face naman medyo breakouts din siguro because of anxiety? nagpupuyat din kasi ako palagi, i don’t know what to do anymore. is it because of the meds? or it’s just the HIV is just showing up?

hi! mag-refill na dapat ako kahapon pero until now di pa rin ako nag rerefill kasi nahihiya ako baka anong mga itanong sa akin kasi fake identity ginamit ko before ko malaman yung status ko dahil sa kapraningan ko. pinaasikaso ba sa inyo agad yung philhealth nyo? 17 pa lang po kasi ako pero ang nakalagay sa identity ko is 19. nahihiya ako sabihin na fake nga yung gamit kong identity baka kasi dahil sa natatakot din ako na ipaalam nila sa family ko lalo na sa parents kong mga senior na. ayaw ko sila mastress, kaya ako nagawa ng paraan. pero naisip ko rin hindi pwedeng peke hanggang buhay huhu naiiyak ako paano ako maggagamot if ever. gusto ko po maging undetectable. QUICK RANT sa nanghawa sa akin. apaka gag* mo sobra, sinira mo gana kong tuparin mga pangarap ko. hinding hindi kita malilimutan. gustong gusto ko gumanti pero hindi ko magawa, binlock mo ako when i tried reaching out, oo kasalanan ko na pero apaka hypp ng mga tao. haha kaiyak po

Naghahanap ako bagong case manager kasi sobrang di ko alam gagawin ko before ako madiagnose 3 weeks ago fake identity gamit ko except sa number ko. Minor pa po ako at 19yrs old ako sa hub ko, gusto ko sana yung discreet lang tapos mag gagamot po sa akin kahit minor ako without telling anyone.

my last test was march 16, negative. apparently noong april 2, i had an unprotected sex with these two mfs, who promised they’re on prep, the one i confirmed he is taking prep. but the other one? no. maybe it’s because of the moment. we agreed nga na no condom, we will do it bare. last week, i tested positive. i didn’t feel anything or what in my body cause i’ve been really conscious about it if i have it or nah. april 16, nilagnat ako pero di ko inisip na sign yon ng hiv because i had sex (protected) with someone and i think may nadali sya sa anus ko kasi nagdudugo talaga. i just took that fever as a sign na nagheheal nga yung nasa anus ko, kasi most of the time if damage talaga, para akong lalagnatin. but this one really lasted a week, mahina blood flow ko ata sa ulo because para talaga akong nalutang, but feeling ko dahil yun sa poppers. hindi ko alam if symptoms na yun ng hiv e. for now, i’m taking my medicines na. magiging sakitin pa rin po ba ako? promise i didn’t feel anything na signs ng hiv, i know some people are asymptomatic, but isn’t that too rare for someone like me na maliit lang ang katawan? wala rin naman akong problema sa katawan kasi nag pa blood chem ako wala namang mali sa dugo ko huhu

ano pong ginagawa nyo if ever nalalate kayo mga 30+ minutes? ang ginagawa ko po kasi if kunware 9:30am ko nainom kinabukasan ganon na, naaadjust nang naaadjust pag inom ko (TB meds), but when it comes to my anti viral, sakto lang naman. sa TB meds lang ako nakakalimutan haha. okay lang ba yun na nalelate ka?

17y pa lang ako and nag gagamot na ako, 1 week na rin. okay na ako, tanggap ko na yung sitwasyon. ang inaalala ko lang is how i faked my entire identity to my hub, because i know if it’s positive they will ask for parent’s permission for the ARV. ilang days na lang din mag-refill na ako, malalaman kaya nila? do they check the identity of their patients? yung parang titignan kung sino k talaga? natatakot kasi ako baka malaman nila na minor pa ako at kailanganin kausapin parents ko about my disease. natatakot kasi ako malaman nila. any information will mean a lot, thanks!

just a typical random day to me. no surprises, walang handa, no greetings. nadedepress ako, haha regalo nga siguro sa akin to ni god, i still can’t process the situation that i have an hiv now. growing up, i was so aware of this disease, but now i have it. and i am such a disappointment in the family. to my ates, i’m sorry ate i tried to be responsible and avoid the situation, but i was betrayed. i trusted them too much🥹 nawala po kulay ng mundo ko. grabe sobra inapekto ng resulta sa akin, now i can’t help myself, but to compare myself to others who don’t have hiv. nalala po insecurities ko

di ko talaga matanggap at maprocess yung situation, i started taking it earlier. sobrang sakit isipin na nakadepende na yung buhay ko sa gamot, natutulala na alng ako. habang buhay na akong ganto dahil sa kagagahan ko, tama ba na tinetake ko na agad?

Just tested reactive today, pero blurred talaga yung isang line and I didn’t notice it at all. But they gave me meds is that considered as positive na talaga? May mga case ba na after 1 month of confirmation nag negative? False positive lang pala? Di ko kasi matanggap🥺 gusto ko na mawala sa mundo

Problem/Goal: I just got diagnosed with HIV just today🥺

Context: Ever since during my puberty, I’ve been so curious about sex, I lost my virginity when I was 14, and as of 17 I have a body count of 30+ I just got tested today and the results shocked me, I had a 3s with these 2 guys I met on G app and I confirmed the one is taking Prep, but the other one, no. I didn’t confirm if he is taking Prep maybe because of the moment. I let them know since I have contacts with them, I do not know if that’s on them. I don’t blame anyone though, and I had an intercourse with this black man in February and he blocked me while I was asking for his status, so I could take Pep, but he didn’t reply and I just found out he blocked me already, and I know it is my fault. To those people who keeps on transferring this disease, you guys will burn in HELL. When I got the results, I was attacked by my anxiety. Kinakabahan ako, hindi ko alam anong mararamdaman, I just wanna kms :) and I do not want my family to know abt this since they told me before na I should not come home with a disease if I will be having sex. I am carrying this alone as of now🥺🥹

Previous Attempt: None, I will start to take my medication tomorrow.