u/igottaknow_

Don't know if i am spelling that right. But does anyone else find that testing to be a crock of sh*t?

Both of my "green" meds cause pretty significant tremors. The first one was supposed to help with depression and i have never been more depressed in my whole life than when I was on it. Also, sexual dysfunction.

The second one i am trying out now but between the tremors and the akathasia, I don't know if i can do it.

Those were antipsychotics, which i generally dont tolerate well..

I seem to tolerate mood stabilizers better. If the dose is high enough, has anyone been stable on these long term? I am scared of mania but I am running out of options here.

I'm at a place with IE where I can usually follow most of the principles without much thinking, it's becoming natural.

I struggle with the idea of mechanical eating. If I'm not hungry, it feels wrong to me to eat. But, I have no food noise now, so I will suddenly feel hungry and it can escalate quickly into a more ravenous hunger.

I am also listening to my body and it tells me what it needs, which isn't always quickly available. It also current doesn't feel good to eat a snack just to satiate the hunger, if it's not what my body wants/needs.

I am just not seeing a way around this, and looking for any tips from someone who may relate.

Maybe I need snack idea lists to refer too

It's hard to keep the amount of variety in the house that I would love to have! Lol

No trigger warning needed - I'm not going to go into detail

I have a trauma history from childhood up into young adulthood (scattered). Does it ever not come up after you've been in therapy????

My bipolar has been hard to manage and my trauma is still often on my mind.

Weekly therapy, take my meds, no drugs or alcohol.

Im exhausted.