Basically, you cry tears that do not refresh you. Your grief doesn't move through you. It sits inside you like a deadweight, unable to budge.
I feel like there's so much conflict in mental health advice, and as someone who never learned to trust their own experience, it's really hard to try different techniques when you're drowning in difficult feelings you were never taught how to face and accept and act on in healthy, constructive ways. So it just all feels useless and invalidating. I know why I'm like this. idk how to course correct or fix it, is the problem.