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Guyzz today I saw my future. Bahut andhkar mein hai. 🥲

Kya matlab kuch dino mein meri bhi qabr ka gaadha aise hi khudega 🕊️

Aaj Mere Saath Ye Hua.

Subah se ghar ke neeche JCB ki khudai chal rahi hai. Sone ka plan tha, par ye log construction start kar diye.

Weekend vibes khatam. 🚧💀

I think it is enough for me today! I seriously need a break.

Mujhe brave browser download karna tha aur fir maine app store kholke app store hi search kar liya to download the app from app store.

Mera ho gaya hai abb 🥲

Aaj Mere Saath Ye Hua

Aaj Mere Saath Ye Hua.

I was sitting there and enjoying youtube videos. Then there came a new YT series of "Living inside a Railway Station for 14 days." by Monkey Magic. If you got time just watch his video it's a good vlog video. There was a video in which he was travelling in general coach. We all are very well aware how general coaches ride is. So after watching a while there came a conflict of thought in my mind that how do we help this section of society.

See honestly speaking I mostly travel in AC coaches or by own car. I avoid taking general coach. And I would say never experienced those difficulties that 60% of India does daily.

So that got me into thinking, when I start earning how do I help?

Should I directly give money to individuals? (but worried about misuse), or donate to an organization or just focus on me and people close to me?

But I tell you one thing I don't give money to beggars, but I never bargain with small sellers - vegetable vendors, electricians, etc. That's my way. Should I continue?

What's yours? How do you decide who/how to help?

Aaj Mere Saath Ye Hua. This story starts after I took shower at 12PM. So mai naha ke aaya and then I heard a knock on my door. Btw both my parents are working and since I am a single child so I live all alone meanwhile they get back from work. Toh maine door khola and their I saw my father standing with the bandage in his hand. Maine dekha aur pucha kya hua so he told me that he met with an accident. Not a major one but sab kuch sahi chal rha tha he was going all slow even road was not bad but somehow the bike got slipped and he just fell on the ground. Aur fir kya tha elbow ke pass swelling start ho gayi thi. However he just crashed near a medical shop toh basic first aid, shop owner ne de diya tha. But then also elbow ke pass swelling start ho gayi thi. Fir maine bhi basic volini wagerah lagaya and then he went to take rest. I also meanwhile did breakfast cum lunch and then mai bhi kaam karne lag gaya tha apne (btw I do remote internship). So evening jaisi hi hone wali thi my father decided ki let's get a X-Ray maine bhi bola thik hai. Let's go.

You know what it's been almost 5 years of me driving a two-wheeler and four-wheeler but aaj tak mere peeche mere hi papa nahi baithe the. Like aaj tak nhi hua aisa. And this was the first time he would have sat behind me. It's always been I have sat behind him but this time he was sitting behind me. I was like yaar sab kuch thik hai pehli baar mere peeche baithe, he would see me driving but that too in condition in which he is in kinda pain. That seriously hit me hard at that time. However we went to hospital OPD shaam mein chalu hoti so we went to emergency. Wahan doctor ne X-ray karane ko bola. X-ray karwaya gaya. X-ray mein it was all clear but wrist ke pass ekk line thi so emergency mein baithe doctor ne benefit of doubt ko clear karne ke liye OPD mein ortho ke doctor ko dikhane ka suggestion diya. We also agreed and took the appointment. Doctor was supposed to come at 6 PM and hum log 4 baje appointment book karwa rahe the. So it was like we need to then stay in hospital for 2 hours straight.

You know guys I have always hated hospital a lot. Pta nahi kyu mujhe hospital se bahut negative vibe aayi ha humesha. The reason being I have always seen people in pain in hospital aur fir wahan pe logon ko dekho naa aur fir khudko toh aisa lagta hai yaar humara dard toh kuch bhi nahi hai inn hothon ke samne jo bass lagatar duaa mangne mein lage huye hai. Kaise bhi apne bhagwan se baat karna chahte hai apno ke liye. So fir kya tha we sat. Halaki mai toh phone pe busy tha mere papa bhi bagal mein baithe vo bhi phone hi chala rahe the. Thoda pain toh tha but utna bhi nahi tha, lekin hand movement mein pareshani toh thi. 6 baj gaye doctor ne dekha. So sabko jo wrist pe fracture lag rha tha wahan pe nahi tha but fracture tha, bahut minute saa in elbow. You know what doctor ke cabin mein we sat doctor ne fracture bola. My father started shivering like literally kap-kapana, I asked him kya hua so he said ki AC ke karan thand lag rahi hai, that was true bahut chilled tha AC.

I tell you one thing vo jo shivering thi naa that literally made me blank out. Meri life flash ho gayi uss ekk moment ko dekh ke, ki aisa kya hua that he got shivering that much. Kahi tension toh nahi hogayi ki he needs to take rest and all. I swear guys iss poore time mai nahi ghabraya tha vo ekk pal ko dekh ke mai ghabraya. I tell you one thing hum sab sochte hai ki yaar everything is fine kya hi hoga. Hum sab life ko highs mein hi dekhna pasand karte hai low ke baare mein sochte bhi nahi hai. But bhai jab low aata haina wo hila ke rakh deta hai. You know that was the moment I realized fck my parents are now getting old. Mai bhi same AC mein hoon mujhe thand nahi lag rahi hai doctor is sitting but there was my father.

Mai naa bahut plans bana rha tha ki yaar startup karte hai yaa khudka kuch karte hai. Lekin vo sab gayab ho gaya when I went to billing counter. Kyunki fracture toh ho gaya tha toh temporary plaster karna tha. Mai gaya counter pe ye sochke ki ok I will pay the bill. Kitne ka hoga max to max 1k-1.5K. You will not believe me 4K was the cost of just a plaster. This was the second realization which I felt ki paisa kamana kitna zaroori hai. Hum khali nahi baith sakte we are now in an age where we can't take things litely. Sab karo sab kuch karo lekin paise kamate huye sab kuch karo. Live life at your best only works when you have the money to live your life at best. I was planning ki mera college khatam ho gaya hai so kuch months ka break lete hai and then job ka dekhte hai. But seeing this I realized no bro I should seek a job now. Fir papa ne bill pay kiya, got the plaster and we went back to home. Dekho abb aage life mein kya likha hai. Mai bhi bahut kehta tha life is unpredictable koi naah, but you know ye sab aap tab tak hi keh skte ho jab ye sab aapke saath ho. But when it comes to someone who is close you can't utter a word. That's true and this made me realize.

Abb hum bade ho gaye hai...

Aaj Mere Saath Ye Hua. Technically aaj nahi kal raat 11 baje maine dinner kiya aur fir apne desk pe jaa ke baith gya aur apna kaam karne lag gaya. You know what mai kuch build kar rha hoon kinda startup jo ki meri passive income ka source ban jaaye. So I was just manifesting about it ki yaar jo hum ekk race mein lage huye hai, kab we will feel like ki hum jeet gaye hai iss race mein. Kab realize hoga ki ye race abb khatam ho gayi hai. Aur kya hoga agar hum race jeet jaaye aur vo jeetne ka maza bhi naa utha paaye. You know how late night thoughts goes like. Bass deeper and deeper sochte rehte ho aap.

Fir mere dimag mein ye bhi chalne lag gaya ki aage ki life kaisi hogi. Jo hum sochte hai, sapne dekhte hai, kabhi vo poore honge bhi ki nahi. Kahi aisa toh nahi hoga ki, jiss chiz ka hum besabari se intezaar kar rahe hai vo utni hi shiddat se humse door jaana chahti ho. Aur fir agar vo mujhse door chali bhi jaaye toh kya mai ye jhel paunga? Ki maine jiske liye poori zindagi nikal di uss ekk chiz ke saath kuch pal guzarne ke liye, vo mujhe apni aankhon se dekhne ka bhi naseeb naa de.

Ye sochte sochte kal ki poori raat mai nahi soya. Neend mano ud si gayi meri. Sab log uthne lag gaye the ghar mein. Mai bhi jabardasti aankh band karke chala gaya sone 6 baje. Lekin fir 9 baje utha diya gaya. Now I seriously feel sleepy. Yaar koi sone do abb pls.

Btw late night thoughts mein kuch lines likhi hai. Let me know kaisi h?

दुनिया से जंग लड़ते लड़ते 
कब खुदसे लड़ने लग गया, पता ही नहीं चला 
अब जब खुदसे लड़ रहा हूँ 
तो हर पल मैं हार रहा हूँ 
हार रहा हूँ मैं उस बीतें हुए कल से 
जिसमें मैंने बस सपने देखें
उन सपनों के लिए कभी काम नहीं किया 
आज जब करने बैठा 
तो लग रहा है की कहीं मैं पीछे छूट गया 
जब खुदको खोजने बैठा 
तब मैं अपने सपनों के उजाले में ही अंधा हो गया
आज भी मैं बस सपने देख रहा हूँ 
और बीते हुए कल को सोचके उदास हो रहा हूँ ||