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Week 17: Alpine — Tibetan Chexo

Week 17: Alpine — Tibetan Chexo

You may be looking at this and thinking: is that literally just white rice? WRONG! It’s basmati rice, yogurt, butter, and salt.

You may also be looking at this and thinking: why the fuck did they make Tibetan food for Alpine week? Well, “alpine” does not solely mean “from the Alps.” I honestly never even considered that when the theme was announced and the discord was lobbying for it. The “alpine tundra” is a biome that sits above the tree line, with an associated cold and harsh “alpine climate.” Basically, there are no trees because it’s too cold. Much of Tibet is alpine.

Tibetan culture, including their cuisine, is often considered endangered (due to what has been called a “cultural genocide”). I was pressed for time, so made a very simple dish, but genuinely want to explore some other Tibetan food, and encourage you to do so as well! I could find very little in-depth information. I skimmed through a bunch of sources in an attempt to find a recipe for chexo — all I knew was that it was yogurt and rice — but the best I could find was in a 2003 book called “Tibetan Customs” by Tao Li & Hongying Jian.

Here is the recipe, and I quote: “Cook rice until it is well down and then mix it with some yogurt.”

I added some salt and butter (unfortunately not yak), as much of the other Tibetan cuisine I saw contained those (I saw a claim that the prevalence of butter is due to a caloric need in such a harsh climate, which is interesting; maybe it’s just tasty though).

Chexo is, I believe, not to be confused with Zhoixo, which I was seeing it used interchangeably with. The aforementioned book claims that zhoixo is cooked ginseng and yogurt, not rice and yogurt.

u/infinitelobsters77 — 20 hours ago

Week 16: Infused — A very red wine dinner

For infused week, I first made a compound butter infused with rosemary and shallots reduced in red wine. Then, I used that butter to sauté some beet greens, and make a red wine shallot risotto. Everything was delicious, although, even though I washed the beet greens thoroughly they were STILL kind of sandy. Oh well. I did serve dinner with a small glass of red wine. Lots of the blood of Christ up in here.

u/infinitelobsters77 — 8 days ago

I’m aware neither of these are exclusively Syrian, but I’ve been wanting to make arayes for a while and this was the perfect excuse. I also made the pitas, of which 4 puffed up and 4 didn’t (tip I only realized partway through: let your oven reheat for a few minutes after each round to ensure it’s as hot as it can get). Honestly, this might have been easier with store bought pitas, because mine were almost TOO puffy and therefore I stuffed them pretty full and I don’t think they cooked all the way. But I wanted to use a recipe from the King Arthur cookalong... Still absolutely delicious. I used fake ground beef (Beyond) as I’m vegetarian, and it worked very well still. Would absolutely recommend!

u/infinitelobsters77 — 15 days ago
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Disclaimer: Title isn’t meant to be dismissive of DID or alters, it’s a question about personal experiences discovering alters, I don’t know a better way to phrase this. Sorry.

I have a slew of mental illnesses like CPTSD, depression, etc. and I’m in the process of getting assessed for OSDD or DID but have been in treatment for what I’ve known is a severe dissociative disorder for about a decade. Obviously I’m working closely with my therapist and psychiatrist, but I want help with articulating these feelings to them. I never thought I had fully formed or realized identities of alters/parts before, moreso just vague notions. “That’s me when I’m feeling younger.” “That’s “normal” 24 year old me.” “That’s me who is more protective.”

I’ve been under an insane amount of physical and mental stress lately, and two days ago my dissociation was at an all time high. It was like “normal me” was at the back of a theater, watching someone else operate my body. I gradually shut down over the course of the day until finally at home in the bedroom it was like I snapped. I was thinking and feeling like someone totally different (a movie character, in specific, so this was very noticeable). I wanted to talk to people, but not as “normal me,” as this person. I was distressed at having a human body. All I could do to comfort myself was put on a documentary and marvel at deep sea fish, lol. It was scary, and embarrassing. I was telling myself, “fuck, have I been going through so much lately I split off a part of myself based on a character? Or am I just losing it?” Like, “normal me” was partially there, but only faintly, watching this all happen.

When I woke up the next day, the feeling was still there, but gradually went away. It hasn’t happened again since.

Frankly, I’m assuming the only answer is “give it time and see if it happens again.” But how on earth do you tell if you actually have an alter or are just… so stressed you’re pretending to? I wasn’t TRYING to act like another person. But maybe some part of me was so stressed and overworked it was a coping mechanism? Is that internalized ableism?!

Any advice helps. Thanks. Disclaimer I’m obviously going to talk about this with my psychiatrist and therapist, I just wanted other people who might experience something similar to weigh in so I can articulate my thoughts better.

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u/infinitelobsters77 — 18 days ago

I had grand ideas for this week, but life had other plans. Instead, I made a last-minute iced matcha latte, mixing rose simple syrup I made into the milk and topping with rose petals. Pretty yummy, although I could smell the rose more than I could taste it.

u/infinitelobsters77 — 21 days ago