u/infrastructureseeker

i've been trying to gain a little more weight with gym and a 3000 calorie diet (which is 300 cals more than i need for maintenance), but i havent been able to get even near that, always ending up between 2000-2300 calories. ive been eating a lot of protein, and while it makes my body more solid with the gym, it makes me so full i cant really bulk and get all my calories in. ive had around 140g of protein daily for 2 weeks rn and ive gained barely a pound. im 6'0 and 158lbs for perspective.

i really love my girlfriend, i feel like she shows her love aswell, but sometimes it jusy gets so cold and distant and i genuinely feel like she doesnt want to be with me anymore…and i dont get why. i give her love, i give her space, i do whatever i can and its never enough. sometimes when she just doesnt say “i love you” it makes me wanna kill myself in the worst possible manner. somehow she also makes me hate my body so bad bc i feel like shes too pretty and skinny to be with a guy like me. i hate my body i cant look at it without feeling disgusted by it, tho everyone says i look well. im spiralling on all and sometimes i feel like no one will ever love me as much as i love them. im empty and full but i just cant take it anymore. PLEASE DO SOMETHING!