u/inspork

I keep track of the days by putting a little number at the bottom of my kitchen calendar every five days. But over the last couple months I have realized that the number doesn’t matter. I still don’t feel “safe” or “past it,” and there’s never going to be a magic number that means you’re in the clear once you hit that point.

I’m sober not just from weed, but alcohol, too. I can’t moderate my substances. There will never be a day where I can have “just a little bit,” because then it will be every day. That kinda sucks, but it’s okay. I had all mine already.

Unlike past attempts, though, I haven’t had any cravings or desires. It’s not the number that matters, it’s building routines, hobbies, activities that keep me wanting to stay clear-headed.

And NOT falling into the trap of “now that I’m sober I need to fix everything in my life.” That’s unsustainable for me. It only resulted in setbacks.

That’s all my thoughts 81 days in. I hope everyone is doing okay out there no matter where you’re at.

I love this sub and I love reading everyone’s posts. It’s very encouraging and uplifting to see this kind of support where elsewhere you’re flat-out mocked or dismissed for speaking about how addictive weed can be.

Last night as I was lying awake (I’m on day 8, so sleep is still a little rough) I was thinking that it might be cool if we could do some sort of weekly/every other day threads to try to get to know each other better and maybe make some friends? Like, some somewhat off-topic posts where we all name our favorite movies, books, shows, and reply to each other in the comments to talk about them. Or we talk about our hobbies, types of jobs, areas of study, etc. Leave a comment, reply to others, get some good conversation going?

I’ve always been a loner and an introvert, but over the last several years, weed has amplified it. I isolate from others, I don’t even WANT to make friends, but I know I need to stop withdrawing from the world. I feel like a lot of us could benefit, because it’s hard to do this alone. Just a thought - apologies if it’s not my place.

…been here before, though. I’ve gone sober multiple times in the past, sometimes by weaning off and sometimes by cold turkey. It seems like I can never get more than 2-3 months in before I cave.

But something in my life has to change. Everything is on pause, I’m doing nothing important apart from getting by day to day. It’s terrible for my mental health; it makes me stop walking and exercising, makes me withdraw from society and isolate from the people in my life. I have to do *something*, and I woke up this morning and decided, “may as well do it today.”

Hi all. 204 hours in the game and still can’t wait to play it every day. I’m only just now exploring and completing quests in Delysia, and have unlocked the use of ATAGs.

At first I thought, “great. There’s a series of areas along the eastern coast of Delysia south of the city that are overrun and I get swarmed whenever I get close. Perfect job for the ATAG.”

However, in practice, it’s a little obtuse. As far as I can find, you can only get ATAGs in the northwest area of Delysia, and you can’t fast travel while in one. So, although it’s a little tedious, I get in and make my way slowly toward the eastern coast.

I. Can’t. Get. There.

Every time I’ve tried, I’ve A) accidentally stumbled upon an area where you can’t pilot an ATAG and it forces me out - even though I was careful to navigate around the red-highlighted areas. I also can’t get back in it and move to a safer area without it immediately chucking me out again.

Then there’s scenario B) I start getting pelted by EMP-like bursts that I can’t see coming and destroy the ATAG before I can get anywhere close to my destination.

So, respectfully, what gives? I’m not a particularly skilled gamer, so it must be something I’m missing, but I try not to google TOO much. Any help is greatly appreciated.

TLDR: I can’t really use the ATAG because it gets destroyed or chucks me out before I can get close to occupied enemy areas, and traveling across the island in it is very slow. What am I missing?