How do I find/love myself again ?
I know this question seems to have kinda an obvious answer. Everyone says to me , I need to love myself first before any relationship or anybody else comes along I HAVE to love ME. Somewhere between the last 2 relationships & 2 serious losses later …& I have NO idea who I am anymore. I have nothing going on my life, I don’t have a job and tbh I really don’t have a home either. If it wasn’t for my “best friend” idk where or who or what I’d be . The problem is I’m not sure now after this time after what all I’ve had to go thru to be here and have the friendship that I have with her . We dated for almost 4 years and loved each other we broke up and never really left each others side and she started dating again. I haven’t been able to find myself interested in anyone since .. it’s been well over 2 years long enough. Everyone in my city thinks we are still dating and or messing around but we really haven’t been intimate or anything like that in a very long time .. mainly because I don’t FEEL anything anymore and when we originally broke up, we were focused on staying single and getting our mental health and lives back together separately. I see now that I stuck to that decision but she can’t not be in a relationship. I’m just lost I want to find me I don’t want to love her anymore. Does that make sense? I want to love me, I want to enjoy my music in my hobbies again I want to feel cocky and popular like I used to be. I feel like all this pain and everything that I’ve been through. Has changed me feel worse the better hasn’t came yet.