u/italianmma85

So I have been combusting for years off and on. I’m 40. Since I was 17 years old. I know, poor lungs and brain. Oh well. We all die. I make the best of it. Anyways. I was on the verge of just quitting. Taper off with edibles. Then I started doing what I do best is searching around on the web. I come to find a study, that low dose of thc reduces stress. That’s why I smoke.. stress.. but I have been self aware of my use. Multiple joints a day, actually combustion and started doing a dive on the negatives of this. Heart problems, lung problems, financial issues, mental/sleep problems. So after tonight, I’m officially done combusting weed.. I’ve been digging more into the dry herb vape and made the decision, to vape .5 at night to take the edge off and enjoy. But only .5. I made this rule, if I do over .5 a night then I’m completely done. Even on special occasions, weekends. Has any of you had any success with this type of use.

I keep giving myself an excuse to keep smoking. Example

Helps with pain from training/mma/lifting

It prevents dementia and good cancer prevention.

It helps with stress and anxiety.. blah the blah the fuck blah. Then I relapse because I believe my excuses.

Then I quit because I review the negatives. Lung health, brain health and heart health. Not to mention the overeating.

The real problem is, I resort to weed for stress and anxiety. We all are going to die, and say fuck it.. might as well be high right? Wrong means I’m a bitch and rely on weed to deal with my problems. So I smoke. I’ve been smoking multiple times a day. I know I can regulate myself to only a joint a night before bed.. but all day I’ll be thinking of that weed at the end of the day. Is it a reward? Or is it addiction? It’s addiction because I’m chasing a high outside my baseline. I’ve been reading a lot about the hedonic latter. It all resorts to baseline. Research state that drug users always chase the high outside of baseline because, well, it’s easily accessible. So we rush to get out of baseline because we know we can, in doing so, messes with our hedonic latter.. (cough, cough) addiction. We are stuck on repeat messing with our natural baseline because we tell ourselves, this helps, this relieves, when all it is, is we are programming our hedonic latter to to accept weed as a the only way to reach “relief, happiness”. Where as if weed wasn’t accepted as a “happy” reward, our hedonic latter will create a “happy” feeling naturally by adopting our adaptation to our environment as our stimuli, and not weed.

I understand this.. but when I start thinking of bad shit, death of my parents.. my addictive brain/messed up hedonic latter will resort to heavy blazing.

I’m at the point where I need to get back to baseline. And reset my hedonic latter. Sure we all die, but I believe our body can naturally deal with different emotions/tragedies and the sort without the “quick” dopamine hit.

Sorry for my rant. All the help would appreciated because my hardest accepting is death itself and “so what” if I smoke weed attitude. I don’t want to keep bitching out to weed for quick dopamine hit. I want my baseline to provide me with those dopamine hits..even during tragic events.

Even if I were to smoke a joint a night, I would most likely develop a dependency rather than let my body naturally decompress with out “get me to happy heights, and everything will be ok”.

Has any of you had success on regulating your consumption

Cheers

I keep giving myself an excuse to keep smoking. Example

Helps with pain from training/mma/lifting

It prevents dementia and good cancer prevention.

It helps with stress and anxiety.. blah the blah the fuck blah. Then I relapse because I believe my excuses.

Then I quit because I review the negatives. Lung health, brain health and heart health. Not to mention the overeating.

The real problem is, I resort to weed for stress and anxiety. We all are going to die, and say fuck it.. might as well be high right? Wrong means I’m a bitch and rely on weed to deal with my problems. So I smoke. I’ve been smoking multiple times a day. I know I can regulate myself to only a joint a night before bed.. but all day I’ll be thinking of that weed at the end of the day. Is it a reward? Or is it addiction? It’s addiction because I’m chasing a high outside my baseline. I’ve been reading a lot about the hedonic latter. It all resorts to baseline. Research state that drug users always chase the high outside of baseline because, well, it’s easily accessible. So we rush to get out of baseline because we know we can, in doing so, messes with our hedonic latter.. (cough, cough) addiction. We are stuck on repeat messing with our natural baseline because we tell ourselves, this helps, this relieves, when all it is, is we are programming our hedonic latter to to accept weed as a the only way to reach “relief, happiness”. Where as if weed wasn’t accepted as a “happy” reward, our hedonic latter will create a “happy” feeling naturally by adopting our adaptation to our environment as our stimuli, and not weed.

I understand this.. but when I start thinking of bad shit, death of my parents.. my addictive brain/messed up hedonic latter will resort to heavy blazing.

I’m at the point where I need to get back to baseline. And reset my hedonic latter. Sure we all die, but I believe our body can naturally deal with different emotions/tragedies and the sort without the “quick” dopamine hit.

Sorry for my rant. All the help would appreciated because my hardest accepting is death itself and “so what” if I smoke weed attitude. I don’t want to keep bitching out to weed for quick dopamine hit. I want my baseline to provide me with those dopamine hits..even during tragic events.

Even if I were to smoke a joint a night, I would most likely develop a dependency rather than let my body naturally decompress with out “get me to happy heights, and everything will be ok”.

Has any of you had success on regulating your consumption

Cheers

I’m in need of 2 point increase for a FHA loan to be at 580. I recently paid off all my collections and all I’m left with is my truck loan and student loans ($7800) It’s only been 20 days since I paid collections off and I hope my credit will bring to the 580 range. Please help if anyone has any advice. Thanks.