u/itmeadele

hii too everyone, my name is Adele, and it is genuinely nice and lovely to meet you all. I have been wanting to share this little piece of happiness because after such a long period, I finally feel like I can properly enjoy and fulfill the positive, warm impression I had about moving into my new home and starting this chapter of my life.

Over the last five years, almost six now, I have gone through what I personally consider one of the most meaningful, mature, and impressive changes of my life. I managed to reach a point where I can finally feel flexible and free, while having the opportunity to take care of all the necessary and unnecessary financial things for both my parents and myself. That freedom means more to me than I can properly explain.

I also had such a sweet and emotional experience with my first pets. I have a three year old dog and a one year old kitty, and honestly, having them in my life is something I always wished I could experience. There is something incredibly innocent and beautiful about the kindness and love you develop with them, and I feel genuinely blessed to have experienced that.

I have also become a little spoiled with my own cooking lately. I started enjoying cooking much more, putting effort into different meals, gaining actual experience, and becoming confident enough to realize that there are things I am probably doing absolutely well. At the same time, I have to admit that this whole enjoyment of cooking and all the delicious, yummy, enormous food I became attached to in my new country has also made me gain some amount of weight. My PCOS issues are another part of that, and I know it is something that can affect my body as well.

I am self aware enough to understand that this part of me might be a flaw for some people. Not everyone will feel pleased, attracted, or comfortable getting into some genuine, deep, and real connection or even a relationship with me, and I completely understand that people have different preferences. I just genuinely appreciate people who do not immediately look at that as something negative about who I am inside or outside, because I think there is much more to a person than one physical characteristic.

After everything, I really just want to put a smile on the faces of people who genuinely need one and hopefully create something meaningful where both sides can experience happiness, comfort, kindness, and a real connection.

That is what makes this whole move feel so incredible to me. Somehow, the decision I once considered my most outrageous and spontaneous move ended up making so many of my dreams actually happen. Everything unfolded in such a natural, unexpected, and wonderful way, and now I finally feel like I can appreciate where I am.

Anyway, I am just grateful for this new home, this new chapter, my little pets, my cooking adventures, the freedom I have built for myself and my family, and all the possibilities that might still come.

Wishing you all love, warmth, happiness, and plenty of reasons to smile🐾

I honestly never imagined I would find myself writing something like this, but lately I have been feeling like I am standing in one of the emptiest and most confusing places I have ever experienced in my life.

About four months ago, I finally ended a relationship that had been going on for an enormously long period of time. Looking back at it now, I realize just how much it affected me. It became such a gross, selfish and constantly negative environment that, little by little, I stopped recognizing certain parts of myself. It affected the way I thought, the way I carried myself, the way I looked at myself and even the way I see my own appearance today. Sometimes I look at myself and honestly feel disappointed or awkward because I know there is a version of me underneath all of this that I somehow lost along the way.

And then, when that whole nightmare finally came to an end, I realized something else.

A lot of the people I became close with after moving to a completely new country many years ago have naturally moved forward with their own lives. They have families, relationships, careers, responsibilities and their own paths to follow. And honestly, I cannot blame them for that. It is completely mature and natural, and I will always support them and genuinely cheer for them, even if our lives are not as connected as they once were.

But understanding something logically does not necessarily make it emotionally easy.

Suddenly, I found myself surrounded by this strange silence. The relationship was gone, the old connections had naturally changed, and I was left alone with myself and everything I had ignored for so long.

That emptiness has started affecting me more than I would like to admit. I have slipped into unhealthy habits, become much more insecure, started feeling awkward and useless, and sometimes I genuinely wonder how I ended up so far away from the person I thought I would become.

It is such a horrible and unbelievably difficult experience that I would never wish this kind of loneliness and inner confusion on anyone.

So maybe this post is simply my little scream into the internet.

Maybe somewhere there is someone who understands what it feels like to suddenly lose the structure of a life you spent years building. Maybe someone else is trying to rebuild themselves after a relationship that changed them in ways they never expected. Or maybe there is simply someone out there who feels like being a refreshing, rare and bright little point of light in somebody else's otherwise very confusing chapter.

I am not expecting anyone to fix me. I think I just want to feel human connection again. A genuine conversation. A little kindness. Something that reminds me that life can still contain beautiful and unexpected things after an incredibly difficult chapter.

This is me trying to find my way through the mess instead of pretending everything is fine.

And if you are going through something similar, I hope you remember that being lost does not necessarily mean you are permanently broken.

Wishing everyone reading this all the love, kindness and peace in the world.

Because honestly, everyone deserves those things...

I honestly never imagined I would find myself writing something like this, but lately I have been feeling like I am standing in one of the emptiest and most confusing places I have ever experienced in my life.

About four months ago, I finally ended a relationship that had been going on for an enormously long period of time. Looking back at it now, I realize just how much it affected me. It became such a gross, selfish and constantly negative environment that, little by little, I stopped recognizing certain parts of myself. It affected the way I thought, the way I carried myself, the way I looked at myself and even the way I see my own appearance today. Sometimes I look at myself and honestly feel disappointed or awkward because I know there is a version of me underneath all of this that I somehow lost along the way.

And then, when that whole nightmare finally came to an end, I realized something else.

A lot of the people I became close with after moving to a completely new country many years ago have naturally moved forward with their own lives. They have families, relationships, careers, responsibilities and their own paths to follow. And honestly, I cannot blame them for that. It is completely mature and natural, and I will always support them and genuinely cheer for them, even if our lives are not as connected as they once were.

But understanding something logically does not necessarily make it emotionally easy.

Suddenly, I found myself surrounded by this strange silence. The relationship was gone, the old connections had naturally changed, and I was left alone with myself and everything I had ignored for so long.

That emptiness has started affecting me more than I would like to admit. I have slipped into unhealthy habits, become much more insecure, started feeling awkward and useless, and sometimes I genuinely wonder how I ended up so far away from the person I thought I would become.

It is such a horrible and unbelievably difficult experience that I would never wish this kind of loneliness and inner confusion on anyone.

So maybe this post is simply my little scream into the internet.

Maybe somewhere there is someone who understands what it feels like to suddenly lose the structure of a life you spent years building. Maybe someone else is trying to rebuild themselves after a relationship that changed them in ways they never expected. Or maybe there is simply someone out there who feels like being a refreshing, rare and bright little point of light in somebody else's otherwise very confusing chapter.

I am not expecting anyone to fix me. I think I just want to feel human connection again. A genuine conversation. A little kindness. Something that reminds me that life can still contain beautiful and unexpected things after an incredibly difficult chapter.

This is me trying to find my way through the mess instead of pretending everything is fine.

And if you are going through something similar, I hope you remember that being lost does not necessarily mean you are permanently broken.

Wishing everyone reading this all the love, kindness and peace in the world.

Because honestly, everyone deserves those things...