I hate it when this happens. I feel like I start to walk funny when it happens. I always have to be deep in thought, with music playing and I have to have something I can stim with in my hand.
Anyone else deal with this too? Lol
I also experienced something similar with my breathing and I had to calm myself down so I wouldn't freak out and forget how to breathe. Jfc
As the title says, just here to rant. Little bit of a backstory: I have been doing the work for years and have always leaned into self reflection and introspection. Then just a few months ago I began to explore Jungian psychology a bit more, learning about Jung's work with active imagination, his own experience with integration and everything. Of course I've also been lurking here as well.
I've always been comfortable with solitude and preferred to be by myself most of the time. I'm in my thirties now and I had this sort of revelation that I have kept myself hidden. As if I don't even exist, except for a few people in my life. My ideas, thoughts and even creativity are just hidden from everyone.
It started when I was taking a walk and I realized how much I consume. Like media and things like that, stuff that other people created for us to enjoy and be entertained with. And I just consume, never giving back. I think we all are scared of showing our creative stuff to others because we don't wanna be ridiculed but I just kept thinking like, I should contribute somehow, right?
Then, I realized that I hide myself. I don't really allow people to know me. I have this deep rooted fear of being seen. Or letting someone see what I created. I just sat here thinking like, damn. I wanna be seen and heard, but I don't allow it. Lots of work to do here with this one.