u/jesterfurbys

Bit of backstory- I’ve been on kratom for about six years now to self treat severe rls (dumb stupid idiotic I know now) and I hadn’t had any severe reactions to it like I have most other medications during withdrawal. But I get to Tuesday and all of a sudden I’m having a severe reaction- my guess is my body has now decided I’m extremely sensitive to it.

So now fast forward to tonight and I’ve been unable to sleep for more than a couple hours, can’t eat, I’ve been pacing for hours upon hours, my body is burning, i feel psychotic and I can’t breathe I genuinely feel like I’m about to do something drastic I can’t do both of these withdrawals at the same time I can’t.

Does anyone know if reinstating will let me actually survive this. I was supposed to go on suboxone at the end of the month too but if this is the reaction my body will keep having I wouldn’t be able to I don’t think.

I had been doing not well but well enough. I was so happy seeing my ten month marker on my sober app. I’m beyond crushed and I need any advice anyone can give.

So kratom was just banned in my state so I had stocked up on it before it was gone and got a doctors appointment to talk about how to get off it. We discussed my options and I decided to try to use up what I had bought before going in for induction at the end of the month.

I started using it in 2019 and stopped for a while and was fine then suddenly got severe rls which I guess I now know is probably because of the kratom. Thing is I didn’t know that and I started it again because I had heard it would help and it has basically been my “miracle drug” for years now.

I genuinely don’t know my dosages but I know it’s been high due to how long I’ve been taking it. I haven’t gotten the euphoria for years now just rls relief and that’s been just fine with me.

Thing is this whole issue is coinciding at the same time as protracted benzo withdrawal which has given me on and off drug sensitivities along with a whole host of issues.

Then start of this week I’m feeling fine- taking my kratom doses when my rls breaks through and it doing what it’s supposed to do. The next day I take my dose (really not that much because I think I knew something was off) and it feels fine at first but then I start getting hot flashes, cold hands and confusion. Feel like the airs been stolen from my lungs, severe anxiety, suicidal thoughts, chest pain, infrequent heart palpitations ,etc. It feels like I’m dying but I can’t discern it from a panic attack so I stay put.

I really don’t know what to do. I know I need to quit regardless if this is because of benzo withdrawal or kratom turning on me but my rls is so extremely severe it’s like my body is possessed and the feeling is beyond unbearable. I haven’t slept in days.

I guess my question is what I should do as of now. Does suboxone help/quell the rls? Even with how bad those episodes were that’s honestly my biggest concern.

Even if there’s no advice to be given I really need some support if you can give it because I’m already going through withdrawal hell and have been for 11 months and I don’t know if I have the strength to do it again.

Nine months off now 🎉🎉🎉

But unfortunately got the worst wave of symptoms I’ve had in about two months and I can hardly eat but I know I need to. Does anyone have any advice on how to get some food into your body when you can hardly get out of bed?