u/jollyhotdogprice

Hey,

Calm down a bit. For the first time in your life, you actually have something good going for you. A healthy relationship. Someone who makes you feel safe. Someone who gives the same energy and affection back. Someone you can actually imagine a future with. Of course your brain is panicking. This is probably the first time you’ve had something that would genuinely hurt to lose. Maybe, that’s why the anxiety feels so heavy lately.

You somehow bagged the matured woman you always wanted. Pretty, dresses nice, listens to cool music -- Pearl Jam and pang bus na music, and has such a genuinely good heart. That alone should tell you life is not completely against you.

I know your mind still gets dark sometimes and you feel like you’re one bad day away from another breakdown. But look at you, still trying anyway. Still loving, still hoping, still staying. That counts for something. Keep fighting your little battles every day. You finally have a reason to keep going now.

Read this after a month. If there are improvements, get yourself a nice meal, a siopao and palamig perhaps?