A Little More From 50 Years of Practice....
I'd like to share a bit more about my 1/2 century of kundalini work, in the hopes it may aid others traveling this unusual road.
And as I said in my first post, everyone’s kundalini awakening is different and unique to their karma; I can only speak to what I have seen or witnessed myself.
Each day now, I want
to say this –
I am here, in the eye of the world,
in the great wind in the pines
on our nearby mountain.
Each day now, I await
signals,
is it the stories the birds tell?
All of my stories have an end,
a middle, and a beginning,
but yours have none of these.
In your story, where do I place myself?
I take three things, and create
a fourth, – incense, breath, scraps
of ink on paper.
And all this time, I
am being hurled through space,
under a vast sky;
dreaming a life.
I believe it is not uncommon to have, at the beginning, some fantastical, otherworldly, or even blissful experiences, often of an obviously divine nature. It is almost as if we are given these gifts to sustain us through the long journeys of darkness through our interior self.
Our unconscious is a luminous darkness, and our enlightenments exist on a continuum of slowly making the unconscious conscious.
For some, it can be a lonely and dark journey, oftentimes stretching for years, decades, or even lifetimes. Our story is vast, and the glimpses of the Divine that we are given serve as our secret, inner talismans that we hold onto in order to give us the courage to persevere.
In response to my first post, some folks asked what are the changes that I experienced after so long a practice. One of the primary changes is a development of inner detachment and non-reactivity to many events. As kundalini dissolves our inner tensions, we have less “buttons” to be pressed; we do not get triggered by things anymore.
First I see you, then
I don’t.
You play hide-and-seek so beautifully
I forget we have been playing for
such a long time – I cannot even
remember when we started.
Here, the winter snows come
and go,
people always arriving and
departing.
I wait patiently for the Spring;
climbing up, the mountains are very
silent.
If you are not careful, you can easily
get lost in their white luminescence.
Another major outcome is a subtle sense of an expansion of reality. Things take on, (when our mind is not preoccupied,) a new depth. A very poor analogy is like when I was a hippie in my 20’s, we used to get stoned and sit around and listen to music, or go places, reveling in being high. Slowly, slowly that becomes our natural state, but it is not unusual anymore, our bodies and mind adapt, and it becomes a normal state of openness. Looking inside ourselves reveals an infinite depth, sometimes dark, sometimes light.
Your ability to be present increases enormously, and we practice becoming an empty vessel, through which this creative and holy energy flows. This becomes a merging of ourselves and this vibrating energy, as we surrender ourselves to this inner flow.
Your life will take on added dimension, and changes naturally occur as situations that no longer serve your growth fall away, and you will attract new ones.
This is another way to say that your sensitivity will increase, and your life will appear both infinitely more precious and precarious. For the truth is that we live in an abyss of unknowing, and our only recourse is to live more consciously in the present.
Feel free to ask questions….
When I close my eyes
your light is still there,
in fact, it’s even brighter
Can you see it now?
It tells me many things;
it tells me that all is
never lost,
that there are no errors,
and that one can have
only what one has given
Come, let me make you
some tea
We can converse about
these and many other things.
You can talk all
you want, I’ll just
listen