u/jow1987

I am waiting results from a colposcopy and I have been a mess since having it.

My smear results showed the worse result indicating cancer and high grade changes.

The consultant I saw was cold, hostile and not friendly at all. The experience was horrible. Literally no compassion at all from either the consultant or the nurse. This is in the UK and under the NHS.

From the results he said he was going to perform a Leep but on looking at everything he changed his mind and just scraped some cells off. I don't think he even took a punch biopsy - he didn't say he did one and I didn't feel anything. The speculum hurt though.

The only thing he queried was whether I had had an emergency C-section - I am 4 months post partum.

He then just said that the results were marked as urgent and let me go. Just said if I bled a lot I was to go to a&e.

All of it has left me an absolute mess. The mention of cancer on the pap, and him stating it to me left me feeling like the only result could be cancer and probably a late stage at that. I have barely slept or ate and spending my time doom scrolling on Google making everything seem worse.

I happened to put my results into ai mode on Google with all other medical things that have been going on - being 4 months post partum, having a big ectropion, having a polyp in pregnancy and the spotting stopping after taking the mini pill and the information it stated was actual reassuring and not anything like I have read anywhere else. It also stated that if there was a tumour or anything sinister looking the consultant has to tell you - obviously that didn't happen!

How much can you trust what it says?

As much as it's nice to read things that don't suggest dying or full blown cancer, I am worried that I have taken comfort in literature that is false!

I will hopefully have my results back this week but it is torture waiting.

Anyone else had really scary results postpartum?

Dreams of dread and death.

Not too sure if this is the correct place to ask, but hopefully someone may have experienced the same thing.

Since I was a child I have been able to "predict" things from dreams. Only remember certain ones from being young but it's been ongoing.

I have also always been able to "sense" things in real life. Normally these are scary things. An energy and feeling of doom. Almost like an anxiety attack but I feel I need to change what is happening to avoid it. There have been many houses over the years that scare me for no reason. Places that have felt completely off. I have dreamt about past family that have been dead for years, never met and been able to tell family their names and pick them out of photos.

When I was about 20 (almost 40 now) I went to see a psychic and they told me to not ignore the messages that came through from dreams. This psychic also told me a lot of things that there was no way she could have known.

I have always thought of dreams as a way to deal with things and how we interpreted them has a huge effect on us. There have been various points where I have dream things and they have happened down to little details. I dreamt of one of my daughters before I was pregnant - as in she was toddler in my dream and then years later I took a photo and it was the image from my dream. I dreamt I woke up in a house with a house fire. Months later it happened and everything was the same as the dream.

These dreams are always about me. Not other people. Like I see things that's are going to happen to me.

For the last few years I have been having dreams that cause such dread. Like death. The fear of dying. That I am dying. These have been more intense in the last year and since having my 3rd daughter. I will have a feeling of utter dread when I am doing normal things and I have to stop and change what I am doing as it's like deja vou and I need to change the outcome.

I had one of these feelings a couple of weeks ago and then last week I received some bad news about my health.

My dreams recently haven't really been showing anything. Last night I asked for a message. That I need to clarify things. That I need some guidance. I woke up after dreaming and an outcome that had been written on a white board. Up until this point my dreams have not been around any of the stuff that has been happening.

Has anyone else had anything like this? Maybe I am just trying to use the dreams to feel better? Although the message on the white board was a weird one as there was nothing else to the dream. Just someone saying what was written on the board.

Dreams of dread and death.

Not too sure if this is the correct place to ask, but hopefully someone may have experienced the same thing.

Since I was a child I have been able to "predict" things from dreams. Only remember certain ones from being young but it's been ongoing.

I have also always been able to "sense" things in real life. Normally these are scary things. An energy and feeling of doom. Almost like an anxiety attack but I feel I need to change what is happening to avoid it. There have been many houses over the years that scare me for no reason. Places that have felt completely off. I have dreamt about past family that have been dead for years, never met and been able to tell family their names and pick them out of photos.

When I was about 20 (almost 40 now) I went to see a psychic and they told me to not ignore the messages that came through from dreams. This psychic also told me a lot of things that there was no way she could have known.

I have always thought of dreams as a way to deal with things and how we interpreted them has a huge effect on us. There have been various points where I have dream things and they have happened down to little details. I dreamt of one of my daughters before I was pregnant - as in she was toddler in my dream and then years later I took a photo and it was the image from my dream. I dreamt I woke up in a house with a house fire. Months later it happened and everything was the same as the dream.

These dreams are always about me. Not other people. Like I see things that's are going to happen to me.

For the last few years I have been having dreams that cause such dread. Like death. The fear of dying. That I am dying. These have been more intense in the last year and since having my 3rd daughter. I will have a feeling of utter dread when I am doing normal things and I have to stop and change what I am doing as it's like deja vou and I need to change the outcome.

I had one of these feelings a couple of weeks ago and then last week I received some bad news about my health.

My dreams recently haven't really been showing anything. Last night I asked for a message. That I need to clarify things. That I need some guidance. I woke up after dreaming and an outcome that had been written on a white board. Up until this point my dreams have not been around any of the stuff that has been happening.

Has anyone else had anything like this? Maybe I am just trying to use the dreams to feel better? Although the message on the white board was a weird one as there was nothing else to the dream. Just someone saying what was written on the board.

Not too sure if this is the correct place to ask, but hopefully someone may have experienced the same thing.

Since I was a child I have been able to "predict" things from dreams. Only remember certain ones from being young but it's been ongoing.

I have also always been able to "sense" things in real life. Normally these are scary things. An energy and feeling of doom. Almost like an anxiety attack but I feel I need to change what is happening to avoid it. There have been many houses over the years that scare me for no reason. Places that have felt completely off. I have dreamt about past family that have been dead for years, never met and been able to tell family their names and pick them out of photos.

When I was about 20 (almost 40 now) I went to see a psychic and they told me to not ignore the messages that came through from dreams. This psychic also told me a lot of things that there was no way she could have known.

I have always thought of dreams as a way to deal with things and how we interpreted them has a huge effect on us. There have been various points where I have dream things and they have happened down to little details. I dreamt of one of my daughters before I was pregnant - as in she was toddler in my dream and then years later I took a photo and it was the image from my dream. I dreamt I woke up in a house with a house fire. Months later it happened and everything was the same as the dream.

These dreams are always about me. Not other people. Like I see things that's are going to happen to me.

For the last few years I have been having dreams that cause such dread. Like death. The fear of dying. That I am dying. These have been more intense in the last year and since having my 3rd daughter. I will have a feeling of utter dread when I am doing normal things and I have to stop and change what I am doing as it's like deja vou and I need to change the outcome.

I had one of these feelings a couple of weeks ago and then last week I received some bad news about my health.

My dreams recently haven't really been showing anything. Last night I asked for a message. That I need to clarify things. That I need some guidance. I woke up after dreaming and an outcome that had been written on a white board. Up until this point my dreams have not been around any of the stuff that has been happening.

Has anyone else had anything like this? Maybe I am just trying to use the dreams to feel better? Although the message on the white board was a weird one as there was nothing else to the dream. Just someone saying what was written on the board.

Hi,

I thought this would be the best place to ask beings as Google has directed me here.

Had a smear that came back stating -

"High-grade dyskaryosis ?invasive squamous cell carcinoma.

Unusual presentation as numerous fibre & tadpole

type cells and scanty high grade epithelial cells in a background of inflammation and blood.

High risk HPV detected"

I only know this as my husband took photos of the paper notes.

I went for my colposcopy today not actually knowing what my smear results were apart from abnormal. The consultant was very blunt and said the smear wasn't good and that they would be doing treatment today with my consent. He said it looked like cancer but obviously they needed to look at things. From googling I can see that it is most definitely cancer.

I agreed to it and they said they would give me a local injection and get on. This was all before he even looked at anything.

I had taken painkillers before but on inserting the speculum I was in agony. He seemed to get annoyed and removed it and said that if I can't cope with it he wouldn't be able to do anything! The nurse basically said the same thing. Said I need to relax - hard when you have just been told it is probable you have cancer!

I asked him to use a smaller speculum which was manageable. I basically lay there with my eyes closed blanking out the whole thing. At some point he said they weren't going to do any treatment as he managed to scrape some cells off. Presuming this was a biopsy.

I asked what was the reasoning behind not doing the treatment and he just said that he managed to get some cells without it. Confused as I thought the treatment was to get rid of all the cells? I am presuming the worse if he could get the cells without treatment.

I asked him about an ectropion I had had for years and he just said it wasn't important - relevance as I was told it was very large and covering a lot of my cervix. I was spotting after having my baby 4 months ago which is why I had the smear test (was also overdue due to pregnancy) although the bleeding has stopped since being on the mini pill.

I was hoping to have a better understanding of everything but the whole thing was so rushed and nothing was really explained. Obviously now I just feel like my world is coming down around me and it's cancer that has probably been there for years. I suffer from health anxiety as it is and it's like I now have a reason to be going straight to the worst case.

Did anyone else have anything similar? What was the wait like for results and next appointments? Were you offered any support for it all? I didn't realise they could tell it was cancer from a smear test so obviously I wasn't prepared to be told it was in the meeting. The consultant was very blunt and didn't offer any information moving forward. This is UK if it makes any difference.

Hi,

I thought this would be the best place to ask beings as Google has directed me here.

Had a smear that came back stating -

"High-grade dyskaryosis ?invasive squamous cell carcinoma.

Unusual presentation as numerous fibre & tadpole

type cells and scanty high grade epithelial cells in a background of inflammation and blood.

High risk HPV detected"

I only know this as my husband took photos of the paper notes.

I went for my colposcopy today not actually knowing what my smear results were apart from abnormal. The consultant was very blunt and said the smear wasn't good and that they would be doing treatment today with my consent. He said it looked like cancer but obviously they needed to look at things.

I agreed to it and they said they would give me a local injection and get on. This was all before he even looked at anything.

I had taken painkillers before but on inserting the speculum I was in agony. He seemed to get annoyed and removed it and said that if I can't cope with it he wouldn't be able to do anything! The nurse basically said the same thing. Said I need to relax - hard when you have just been told it is probable you have cancer!

I asked him to use a smaller speculum which was manageable. I basically lay there with my eyes closed blanking out the whole thing. At some point he said they weren't going to do any treatment as he managed to scrape some cells off.

I got told to get stressed, advised that if I bleed loads I need to go to a&e, and that the tests were marked as urgent so should get them back in a couple of weeks.

I asked what was the reasoning behind not doing the treatment and he just said that he managed to get some cells without it. Confused as I thought the treatment was to get rid of all the cells? I am presuming the worse if he could get the cells without treatment.

I asked him about an ectropion I had had for years and he just said it wasn't important - relevance as I was told it was very large and covering a lot of my cervix. I was spotting after having my baby 4 months ago which is why I had the smear test (was also overdue due to pregnancy) although the bleeding has stopped since being on the mini pill.

I was hoping to have a better understanding of everything but the whole thing was so rushed and nothing was really explained. Obviously now I just feel like my world is coming down around me and it's cancer that has probably been there for years. I suffer from health anxiety as it is and it's like I now have a reason to be going straight to the worst case.

If anyone can offer any advice of what they had been through with it all I would love to hear.