I'm drowning from my thoughts, I can't get out on my own but I don't want to be a burden
I'm so lost. I have so much problems that there isn't a straight line anymore. I can't get out. It's both in my head and the environment around me. I'm stuck in poverty, so many problems would be alleviated if I had even a bit of money. I'm just a college student from a third world country. I can't get out. I badly need to fix my head and how I think, I can't afford it. I need friends, but I can't afford hobbies. My home is a mess but my social anxiety prevents me from taking walks outside. I don't know anymore. I feel so lost. Wake up feels painful like there's a thorn on my side. It won't go away. I can't keep myself grounded anymore. I don't know what to do. I NEED SOMEONE to tell me what to do, to help me out. But I'm not worthy of being saved by anyone, I don't have any worth at all. People get nothing from helping me. Why can't I die sooner why do I need to suffer for years.