u/kaeriko

apologies for the stupid question but I'm having a type crisis and stereotypes are kicking my ass.

basically, is it possible to be a 2 that doesn't really give? of course I see myself in every other aspect of the type 2, but not really this. I like to give advice, etc but I do not help others at my own expense compared to how I often see type 2's talk about their life experience. I don't really do favors for others or give gifts. I give myself and advice and emotional support. I also don't necessarily do it to receive anything (I usually get nothing in return anyways so I'm used to it... makes me mad but oh well.)

stereotypes are really kicking my ass so please try not to call me an idiot, I know my iq is decreasing by daring to ask this stupid question

Ok so I have just thought about this properly for the first time ever, so forgive me if I sound stupid

I have for a long time gotten certain smells when I listen to certain songs, but it's not all the time (or maybe I just dont notice it as much sometimes)

I realized this as I was listening to For Good from wicked and suddenly I smelled the aroma of freshly baked cookies & cinnamon buns, both of which we do not have in the house. And I realized I can kinda smell songs. But how do I know if this is synesthesia or not? What if I'm just picking up random smells from around my house that arent necessarily strong and I just randomly focus on them more? I do always get a certain mental 'vibe' at the same time as I listen to these songs and start to get a smell. The weird thing is I have never smelled a bad smell lol, it's always something pleasant.

I'm not sure if I properly have similiar experiences otherwise, as I have aphantasia for example so I do not physically see anything when imagining even if I get strong vibes

anyone else? Is this normal? My life does not change at all even with more normal ferritin levels. I have had extremely low ferritin levels since I was a small child. I don't really understand this. Doctors have also refused to get me an infusion so i don't know if that would work and have refused to do any further testing to see if this is part of a bigger problem. It's not that my levels arent technically raising when I'm on iron supplements, they do raise (even if a bit slowly) but I just feel the exact same even with higher ferritin levels. For reference my ferritin is usually at like a 3-6 when I have tests done without being on any supplements

edit: and since I have adhd i tend to forget to even keep taking my iron supplements every 2 days since i always feel the same anyway and.. well, i never end up reaching a normal level 💀

Mostly asking for myself because I am afraid that this is me even though I always deny it. At the same time I feel inferior to others so I force myself to feel like I'm better than everyone, but at the same time I always feel like the victim and I have a really hard time accepting when I am in the wrong due to my pride. I don't really know why, honestly. I feel like as a child everyone always forced me to be the bad guy despite being actually targeted, so now I subconsciously apply this complex to every situation in my life. Just confused about my type as usual, no suprises here haha

Is it just me or was anyone else waiting for him to get better throughout the ENTIRE SHOW? I just finished the show and throughout every single episode, I kept thinking "maybe he'll get better soon", "is he finally going to learn?" "is he growing?"

I'm not even sure if I hate him or not because it felt like he kept getting better, and then he just went right back. he kept apologizing, and then doing it all over again. he kept treating lynette like crap, then seemed like he was going to finally change, then he just did it again. So boring. I don't mind his existence, I guess, but he's so... boring, actually? What a push-over. throughout the entire show he kept making all these HUGE promises, having these big ambitions, saying he was gonna 'finally' do things and coming up with new dreams, and acting like he was finally going to change or be better, and then it all ended up going to shit. and in spite of all that, he can't say no. he's always the fake good guy. It's annoying. he reminds me of my own dad to some extent, making all these big promises but never following through, LOL!

SPOILERS don't read if you are still watching!!!!!!!!!

I'm so sad about mike's death. his death was so unfortunate, and in general I cried so much in this season. this show really makes me cry sometimes 😭 I feel so bad for susan & MJ, that whole episode & the funeral made me cry so much, all the flashbacks and everything.

also, what am I going to do with my life now that I've finished this show?!?! do you guys have any recommendations for similiar shows or if there's even any spin-offs? I love this show SO MUCH and love how almost all the characters developed throughout it. their chemistry with eachother really felt so natural unlike almost any other show I've watched. idk what to do now that I've finished it. I will definitely be rewatching it but maybe not right now, I'm still processing everything that happened in the 8th season! so much crazy shit.

also again I'm so sad about mike. almost all the character deaths in this show made me super sad but I loved mike since the first season, he was one of my favorites (even though at first I thought he would be a serial killer LOL) 😭

I have an odd fascination to my own & others' venus placement and any aspects to it, I find it super interesting and I would love to collect some more information on how people here act when in love, along with your venus sign (: I'll go first!

I have a cancer venus in the 11th house, I fall in love fast & hard and I am very obsessive when in love (no suprise there), I can become a little stalkery and it's very difficult for me to fall out of love (: despite all the hardships, this might be my favorite placement in my own chart, but I'm biased because I just love venus and it's attributes in a chart.