u/kakarashe

There are two instances where i have doubted wether i violated my workplace policies.

I’m 21 F working at a daycare. There are many policies we are not allowed to break including taking pictures. I thought it would be fine as long as no pictures were posted online or used for weird reasons. I wanted to update my mom on my job so i took a selfie with a kid and sent to her. She told me to delete the picture immediately and i was confused as to why. She later said its a violation and i felt guilty and panicked so i deleted the picture immediately.

Another instance where i was playing with a baby (1 year old) and i got cute aggression so i patted his head and gave him a little peck. I see my coworkers do the same so i didnt think anything of it at first, but after some reflection i thought ”is this allowed? what would the parents think?” and i felt guilty. Those instances weigh on me now, i like to think of myself as a safe space for the kids i care for so i dont want to accidentally harm any of them. Was what i did immoral?

Ive been a part of the gaming community for the past 4 years. I fell victim to the ”dark” and ”edgy” humor that many gamers use online but ive grown out of it and have bettered myself since then. But there is one specific ”joke” that i made that has stuck with me and made me relapse so many times. I struggle with moral OCD and real-event and i keep replaying this joke over and over and i feel ashamed and disgusted everytime.

Heres what happened: i met two guys online who kept saying racist stuff to me ”jokingly” so i wanted to get back at them. I made a very cringe your mom joke where i joked about rape. They didnt seem to care and kept being racist. I dont know what possessed me to say something like that since im both a woman and a victim of sexual violence, but in that moment it just slipped out and i regretted it immediately after. I hate when people joke about violence against women, so why did i? I apologized to them before leaving the game and i had a very bad depressive episode after. I kinda forgot about it for a year but now two years later it came back to me and i havent been able to stop thinking about it. Im ashamed and disgusted. Am i bad?

Ive been a part of the gaming community for the past 4 years and i hate every second of it. I fell victim to the ”dark” and ”edgy” humor that many gamers use online but ive grown out of it and have bettered myself since then. But there is one specific ”joke” that i made that has stuck with me and made me relapse so many times. I struggle with moral OCD and real-event and i keep replaying this joke over and over and i hate myself over it and i feel ashamed and disgusted everytime.

Heres what happened: i met two guys online who kept saying racist stuff to me ”jokingly” so i wanted to get back at them. I made a very cringe your mom joke where i joked about 🍇. They didnt seem to care and kept being racist. I dont know what possessed me to say something like that since im both a woman and a victim of sexual violence, but in that moment it just slipped out and i regretted it immediately after. I hate when people joke about violence against women, so why did i? I apologized to them before leaving the game and i had a very bad depressive episode after. I kinda forgot about it for a year but now two years later it came back to me and i havent been able to stop thinking about it. Im ashamed and disgusted. Does anyone else experience this?