u/kant_do_it719

42 otherwise healthy male. 4 years ago I booked an eye test as my vision had totally blurred during an exam. My eye balls were absolutely killing. Optician referred me as an emergency to the hospital- got there 3 days later. Tests were unremarkable- think there was some blurred disc margins but the guy looking wasn't arsed.

Between then and now had a few similar episodes- perhaps once a month occasionally skipping a month. The other month I was walking along and it felt like I'd suddenly entered a thick fog. Vision occasionally oscillates too.

The other day I had an attack couldn't read anything at all. Went to Specsavers today and expected nothing to come up. Said I have high pressure in my right eye, fluid behind it and narrow/angle closure. The chap seeing me said as I wasn't having an attack there and then he'd not refer me but to go back in 6 months.

To be honest I'm not exactly clued up on what's going on- typed "angle closure" into the search and posting here as it seems to pop up a bit.

I'm not expecting medical advice or diagnosis, just wondering what may be going on and if there's any reason to be concerned at all?

I think I'm edging towards suicide..

18 years together, two boys I adore and a lovely wife.. I've tried my best to carry on. But at the moment it's a day to day type thing. I am worried for myself. I tick pretty much all the boxes.

I've mentioned before im struggling (not to this extent). She withdraws and gets upset. I feel even worse. I don't want to say something then feel okay in a few weeks but then to have caused so much worry and pain.

I've withdrawn from my friends. Don't have anyone to talk to really. Stopped all my hobbies ages ago.

Just scared all the time. Hate myself, racked with guilt and regret. Not sure I'm going to pull through this.

Not going to do anything hasty. Posting here, I suppose for sympathy and advice as pathetic as that sounds. Anyone else had a spouse go through this? I appear eternally fine by the way.