I am considering giving my baby up for adoption
I am a 32 year old female who just found out at 34 weeks that I’m pregnant. I never wanted to be a mom, I actually had an abortion last September and a few months later got pregnant again except this time I had no symptoms because I was taking birth control. The father is absolutely not interested in parenting and is pushing strongly for adoption. He told me our relationship would be over if I decided to keep her. He’s not a bad guy, he’s actually a good guy he just doesn’t want to be a parent. I’m struggling because the thought of giving her away feels like my soul is being ripped in half but I also really don’t want to be a mom, and definitely not a single mom. I’d have to quit my decent job because the hours aren’t accommodated by daycares and I’d have to move to a different state to be close to family that might help. No one besides me and the father know about this because we both feel so much shame about possibly giving her away. I’m so lost and I don’t know what to do and I only have a month to decide.