I'm broken and lost. I will make another post when I'm able to think more clearly. But I'm too shocked and dazed right now. Hold your loved ones close and give them an extra hug and kiss today.
It took several minutes to realize that oh wait, I'm not a Muppet, I'm a human who just smoked salvia. What was weird/interesting/funny about it was that it didn't feel trippy to me. It felt completely clear minded. I think that partly contributed to me forgetting I had even smoked salvia, because it just seemed too realistic. Not confusing/trippy/disorienting like previous trips. Lady Salvia is mysterious in how every trip can be so different. Anyway, I just wanted to share this because I found it interesting and amusing. Thanks for reading. Hope everyone is well.
Like should I buy it or make it? If the first, can someone tell me where? If the second, tell me how? Thanks in advance.
So after some technical difficulties with the new bong bowl burning me and accidentally sucking up some bong water lol. (I had to replace the bong bowl after the last salvia adventure because I kicked the table I put my bong and camera on while I was fully disconnected and the bowl smashed.) I managed to have a second trip this time. This was very different from the first. The first, I completely dissociated and disconnected from my body and this reality for a few minutes, to the point that where it kicked in, it felt and even looked like I passed out. In the video my eyes rolled back and I fell onto my bed. But with this current trip, I stayed "here", just in a deep meditative state. This time, it was like a woman who had a disfigured face, similar to a Picasso painting, was talking extensively to me about the essence/spirit of feminity. But not exactly talking, because it was not English, but almost telepathically? That isn't the right descriptor either but it's difficult to accurately explain. And not sure yet what to make of it. Anyway, sorry for the wall of text. I just know that I can at least share my experiences with you awesome people. Thanks for reading.
So after my last post I finally have something to share. I think my main issue was building up reverse tolerance. I have taken the same amount as shown in this video (3 bong hits of 40X in one breath with a torch lighter, holding it in til I can't, yeah only til now did that immense amount work instead of having barely any effect like usual.) There isn't much to see except at the beginning because I kicked my camera down accidentally. But you can hear me mumbling to myself at the end as I'm slowly coming back to this reality.
I do everything right. Set the environment and intention. Used a torch lighter (and a regular lighter just as a basis for comparison.) Held in my hits as long as possible. Tried higher concentrations. (So far 10X, 20X, and 40X.) Tried smoking more, smoking less. Space attempts out further apart or closer together. Nothing seems to really make things work differently. I'm going to describe what happens; it's always one of 2 things and nothing ever else. It's either that I get mild body high and feel slightly more grounded. OR for some reason my limbs flail and I make weird noises, usually random syllables that are different each time it happens. I'm sure I look like a fucking idiot lmao.
The flailing isn't a reaction to anything; it just happens. I get no accompanying hallucinations, and honestly not really any feelings regarding it whatsoever. It doesn't feel good or bad, just neutral. The only time I've heard of even a similar reaction was because someone's confusion to a trip. But that isn't the case with me. There's no trip, no feelings, nothing. Am I just defective or something? Am I doing something wrong?