u/kawaiistyled

I'm making a playlist that I'm gonna burn on a CD for tough times. I need a few songs that are hopeful but you have to really listen to notice or are about how we have to fight for hope especially ones that find hope in dark, cynical, and chaotic places. Songs currently on the playlist include: Welcome to the Black Parade (MCR), Letterbomb (Green Day), This is Gosple (Panic! at the Disco), and Renegades (X Ambassadors). That's just a few. It can be all types of hope. I just need to be reminded to look for hope in even the darkest places. Idk I've been journaling and I can't figure out how to word what I'm looking for to Spotify and Google

I already posted on r/SongRecommendations I'm just worried that if I post on only one sub I won't get seen

I mostly listen to Pop Punk and Punk most of what I listen to could be called "emo" music lol

Edit: I should add please nothing that mentions the Abrahamic God. I am pagan and have horrible religious trauma from being raised Catholic. I have had so many panic attacks from encountering it recently (it usually takes a couple of things to start that tho) and I live in the South (of the USA)

I'm making a playlist that I'm gonna burn on a CD for tough times. I need a few songs that are hopeful but you have to really listen to notice or are about how we have to fight for hope especially ones that find hope in dark, cynical, and chaotic places. Songs currently on the playlist include: Welcome to the Black Parade (MCR), Letterbomb (Green Day), This is Gosple (Panic! at the Disco), and Renegades (X Ambassadors). That's just a few. It can be all types of hope. I just need to be reminded to look for hope in even the darkest places. Idk I've been journaling and I can't figure out how to word what I'm looking for to Spotify and Google

Edit: I should add please nothing relating to or mentioning the Abrahamic God. I am pagan and have horrible religious trauma from being raised Catholic. It's so bad I've been getting panic attacks recently

So I made an OC who is a nonbinary fox therian like myself. I'm thinking about renaming them but am stuck for names. They discovered they were therian around the same time they discovered they were nonbinary so I want their new name to reflect it but it can't stand out so much that the name would stick out like a sore thumb being listed next to a couple of cis women's names. The idea is a company decided to try and bring the success of kpop to western music industry. They do a lot of covers both kpop and many western genres. They present more feminine but with like short hair that constantly changes color (not like magic they just like to dye it). I don't want the name to be too feminine though a little feminine is fine. I've also considered names relating to the moon or the ocean too.

I have been feeling called to work with Loki lately but this is my first time working with a Nordic God. Also some of my family (Christian) are against me working with him BC of his reputation as a trickster. My dad said he'd kick me out if something bad happened as a result of me working with him. I DO have a place you go if worst comes to worst, but I doubt that will happen unless he just blames me for something random that happens. Idk the likelihood of that happening, he's been stressed lately. Despite all this from what I've heard I think it is best for me to start working with Loki. I've had so many signs that this is right. Sorry for rambling. I was told to come here for questions about Loki so I was wondering if anyone has advice. I've worked with the Greek and Celtic pantheons before. I've been working on an altar and have been offering him candy and a little trinket I got at work (it's like a pink, rubber moth someone got it from the capsule machine and left it behind). Last night my dad took some of his stress out on me and my mental health is really bad so I spiraled into my worst insecurities and as I was laying in bed about to cry I felt the presence of I think every God I've worked with. One was stronger than the others' and I couldn't tell if it was Loki or Aphrodite but it was one of them. Either way it was very comforting and encouraged me to use my tools instead of sitting there all sad. Sorry if this is just word vomit I just needed to get this all out of my brain. But I would really appreciate any advice anyone has

Edit: this post makes my dad look bad. We're going through a bit of a rough patch and I had to vent. He would never physically hurt me on purpose. I'm sensitive and have a tendency to spiral. I'm legally able to move out whenever but I lack the resources, skills, and mental stability. Like I have a friend in a worse family situation than me (I only have like 3 friends). My safety wasn't supposed to be the focus of the post again just had to vent and it was on my mind bc I was on my way to therapy. I might delete this and rewrite it with less focus on my dad. The worst my parents will do is like preach at me and I just brush it off and nod along. They're just trying to share their beliefs not convert me back (I think)

So I've been feeling a strong spiritual connection to foxes lately and gave been wondering if it is a deity calling to me. I posted about this earlier but mentioned something that was a banned topic so I'm going to try this again without mentioning it this time. Mods said that was fine. I got a bit of advice the first time I posted that I will include in this version. So I was thinking it was Loki because he came up in my research on fox related deities but I look into him and don't see much connection but some say they associate him with foxes. I looked into Norse paganism and foxes again but looked further than the initial results and Freya also came up. But as I looked into Loki it seemed so right however I live with my Christian parents so I felt nervous about working with a deity who can be considered evil. I asked and my dad said he advises against working with tricksters and he'd kick me out if something bad came of it. I was telling my mom that hurt and she said that he had been saying he would kick me out if I did anything evil so I'm on thin ice for being pagan. I know to not do anything that could risk my safety but the calling felt so right until he said all that. I felt like working with Loki could help improve my mental health as well. I mostly work with Aphrodite but she doesn't always have solutions and I did a thing that results in me being cut off from her for a bit and I apologized before I did it but I'm still working back up to her. I think saying what I did may also be against the rules so I won't. I said a prayer outside asking whatever deity is calling to me to give me another sign and I couldn't quite make out what the message I received back was saying. I just heard Freya and Loki's names mixing in my head. I also feel called to work with Norse and Shinto fox spirits. But with deities I'm lost all over again. I'm going to try a tarot reading and see if that helps but I would love some advice

So I've felt a strong spiritual connection to foxes and I think it's someone calling to me. After asking some other people and thinking on it myself I think Loki is calling me to work with him (as well as fox spirits from multiple belief systems but that's not what I want to ask about). I looked into working with him and it came up that he is often considered evil. Since I feel like I'm already on thin ice with my parents for practicing paganism when they're Christian I decided to ask if they would mind. My dad said that he would advise against it and would kick me out if something bad came of it. I don't know what to do. I still feel called but I don't want to risk getting kicked out if something bad happens even independent of my work. I know don't do anything that could put you in danger of losing your home but I feel like working with him might help my mental health. I've heard that he can have the answer when it seems like there is no solution. If he flat out said no I don't approve that would be one thing and I'd just put it aside until I managed to move out but like what does he know about Norse Paganism but he said that tricksters are not to be trusted and something about giving the devil his dues. Any advice? Should I just stick to fox spirits for now?

Edit I told my mom that I was feeling hurt by what he said and she told me that he's been saying he would kick me out if I did something evil. So I'm not just paranoid I am on thin ice for being pagan

So I'm feeling a strong spiritual connection to foxes. I figured out that I'm a fox therian but I wonder if it's also a deity calling to me. I've googled gods connected to foxes in a few pantheons but none of them stand out as calling to me. I've looked at Celtic and Greek which I already worship from and Norse which I have considered but don't currently worship from. Loki kinda stood out but that might have just been because his name was highlighted when I searched it. I'm open to hearing from any pantheon.

My main knowledge of foxes in spirituality and folklore comes from an on and off special interest in Japanese yokai. I've read a lot about kitsune but I'm (very) white and don't want to like infringe on another culture's beliefs. I mean I kinda believe in yokai but partially out of whimsy and wonder. I'd like to believe that stuff like that can exist in this world. I believe in like mermaids and stuff out of that same whimsy like I know I'm probably in denial but they could be out there somewhere.

This went off topic but if anyone has any advice on deities please let me know. I can't shake the feeling that someone is calling me but I just can't figure out who.

So I have 3 play scripts, 3 ongoing fan fictions, 1 dropped fan fiction, and a one shots book sitting in my docs untouched for awhile. All based on around the same video game series that us an ongoing special interest of mine since high school (currently about to turn 23) the scripts have been in my docs since high school and idk if I have touched them since COVID (I might be wrong tho). Thing is I want to start a new shiny project of adapting a different game into a play. I'm torn. On one hand do I really need another project? Especially since I might drop it as well eventually. BUT I'm like acting out scenes from this idea of a play floating around in my head by myself and sometimes it's all I can think about. Wtf do I do? Also it would get me to pick the game up again and picking it up would justify me buying the new expansion dlc that I've been wanting and doing my best to avoid spoilers for but haven't gotten bc I don't play anymore bc I got all the content I could out of it and I've been stuck in a paradox about that since the dlc adds a lot of content. I've been interacting with the fandom space and official accounts related to it just not the game itself. But do I need a new project?

Edit: I've decided on my own to do it. I have words in my head that I must get out