Hi everyone. I plan on taking Biol 214 this upcoming fall semester. The class is online with the recitation in person. I just want to know the average workload and how the class is set up to help prepare myself.
A few days ago, I cut off three internet friends after I realized I find no joy in their company. We met about a year ago, formed a gc, and bonded over our similar interests and experiences. I met them at a huge transition in my life (HS ➡️ Uni), and they made me feel less lonely. Fast forward a couple of months, the warning signs went off. Two of the three would harasses anyone who didn’t share their opinion, say rude things to strangers on the internet over the most trivial matters, and just created a toxic environment. I didn’t say anything because I didn’t want to cause any problems. After a while, I noticed how one of them started distancing them selves from me (stopped replying to texts, didn’t interact as much, made posts vaguely directed towards me, and then took me off her priv). My mind spiraled with ”What do they think of me?” and “Do they like me or not?” And “What did I do wrong?”. I didn’t want to pry because I know that specific individual can get defensive instead of engaging in a proper manner. Honestly, I got sick of making assumptions about them, tolerating bad behavior, and walking on eggshells every time I wanted to initiate a conversation. Even when I wasn’t on the internet, they would preoccupy my mind. My mood would worsen as time went on. Eventually, I mass blocked them on any on all social media accounts we were mutuals on. While I only had problems with two of the three, I cut off contact with all three. I am by no means the good person in this situation. I have acknowledged that I could’ve handled the situation better, confronted the problems instead of running away, and squashed my people pleasing tendencies. Do I regret cutting them off? Not one bit and I am so relieved I did. Yet, my brain is making me think I’m the worst person ever for prioritizing my mental health. The question I need to answer is: How can refocus my energy on my wellbeing (which I have neglected this past year)? In other words, how can I stop making social media a top concern and recognize there is so much more to life than ex-friends?