u/kiraagoth

hi! i’m on day 2 of a tolerance break. this summer i’ve heavily abused carts and i want to switch back to flower because of my poor lungs and brain. however, tolerance is too high for flower to do shit anymore. i set a timer and i’m about 40 hours in.

i feel pretty good mentally, my brain is so clear, i’m not very anxious. i feel kinda understimulated but i have adhd so that is normal and expected. what wasn’t expected was me eating probably 500 calories yesterday because i literally could not get anything down and then vomiting multiple times last night. each time, i’d feel feverish and had to lay on my bathroom floor until my temperature regulated. when i’d get up to go back to bed, i’d be sweating and so cold that my teeth are chattering. very unpleasant night.

today i had like 3/4 of a piece of toast. my stomach is in agony because i am so starving but everything looks like resident evil food and tastes like it too. i’m pretty small already and have been going to the gym. i don’t want to lose a bunch of weight and hard work.

any advice for eating/nausea/vomiting? or just t breaks in general? thank you!

EDIT: Staph! Not cold sores! I feel like I need to clear that up. He calls it that so I did too. Sorry for confusion. It’s reoccurring impetigo

I (F21) have a huge tattoo I’m currently healing, and my boyfriend (M23) carries staph and gets little sores around his nose. We went shopping, and he went to kiss me, I dodged him and kissed him on the cheek. He looked really upset, and said it wasn’t contagious. I told him it is in fact very contagious and left feeling kinda bad. I didn’t see him yesterday and don’t want to today but I know he’ll want to today.

Yesterday he texted me saying he was insecure about it, and that he gets them when he’s stressed, and me avoiding him stresses him out. I literally just don’t want a staph infection while I’m healing a big tattoo. Am I the asshole?

i started this job when i was 19, the kiddo i work with and i have established such a strong bond. however, she does not like any of the other teachers, and will drop to the floor and cry if they come to help her.

i’m 21 now, i’ve had 2 years with this wonderful girl and since hearing the news i won’t be with her due to this attachment next year, i have taken it really hard. i cried when i got to work today, but held it together in front of my peers, i cried when i saw her, i cried when i got home and i’m crying as i write this. i am so so proud of this girl and the progress she’s made, but i am having such a difficult time letting go. i genuinely think i might be too much of a softie for this job because this is a type of heartbreak i have never experienced. i’m wondering if most people feel this way or if i need to find another job to avoid feeling this way again.

her mom requested i follow her next year as well, and has expressed to me how much she appreciates me and how much i’ve done to help, and i’m sad for that reason as well. i wish i could do more