My life feels meaningless without my best friend
I lost my best friend and soul dog a little over a month ago to kidney failure. She was a 16-yo Jack Russell mix. She crashed quickly over the course of two weeks, and there was nothing we could do. Her blood work was great a month before her passing and it really felt out of the blue. The night before we put her down, we took her to the park, sat in the sunshine, and she looked at us as if to say, “I’m ready.” My heart is still shattered thinking about her last few weeks and I feel like I can’t live without her. We did EVERYTHING together.
To make matters worse, my dad was recently diagnosed with cancer, we just moved to a new state, and my job denied my PTO when I requested 2 days to put her down and grieve (due to this (and many other reasons), I left my job of 7 years and am now unemployed). I feel like my life is falling apart without my little bestie. She was SO confident and bold and always helped me be brave. I’m not sure how I’m going to tackle life without her.
Will things ever get easier? I miss her so much. I’m trying to live life like she would, bold and brave, but I’m just not as brave as she was.