will it ever get better?
i'm 17, and i just moved 233 km away from home for college. my dad, together with the rest of my family, drove for 5 hours just to help me clean up my dorm and properly send me off. we aren't rich, but my siblings and i have always been incredibly spoiled.
in almost 18 years of living, i've never had to buy food at a public market or commute on a bus by myself. most of the chores at home were taken care of by our helper. i never learned how to cook because my mom always did it for us. i never had to wake up early to prepare breakfast or get everything ready for school because my mom and grandma had already done it before i even got out of bed.
so now, being alone in a dorm with no one to rely on feels overwhelming. for the first time in my life, i'm responsible for everything, and i don't even know where to begin. i've never felt this homesick before. i miss home in ways i didn't think were possible.
i keep telling myself that things will get better with time, that one day all of this will feel normal. but i can't help but wonder... will it honestly?