u/koifyer

i have no friends, i have no one, we did grad walk at my school and i almost cried alot of times knowing i have nobody. im so pathetric and lame, i have no personality. i jsut wwant someone to be my friend, i wany people to hasn gout with i hatew the person i am, sometrimes i say i wantn to die but thats not even true either, im so pathetic i make no effort to change anythingn or just end things i just wallo9w, ive tried toi make friends but im so annoyinhg snd pathetc and i ruin thw friendships i do have, im such a fucking loser

weve been together since we were 14, and we knew eachother since 2nd grade and hes my bestfriend, we dont usually fight but sometimes we do and he says things that hurt my feelings and honestly change how i view the relationship, saying that between his friends and i hed choose them (in a conversation about how he spends all day with them and cant even spend an hour or 2 with me), he told me being with me feels like hes going through the motions and that really hurt me, and just yesterday says he just “cant connect with people” after we hung out and he ghosted me after, i dont understand why hes doing this to me i feel so alone and he knows i dont have any friends and he doesnt bother being nice to me and it hurts

i had a rough childhood where i was bullied for my physical appearance, this didnt stop at school, it was worse at home. i had a few friends growing up and now i have no one, i havent made a new friend since i was a preteen. i have 3 people i talk to on a pretty regular basis, being my boyfriend, my childhood best friend and my cousin. ive tried to hang out with my childhood best friend but she blows me off (one time even telling me i can bring her a gift to her birthday but i cant stay), i someitmes cant even get my boyfriend to hang out with me and he will hang out with me once a month if im really lucky, and never at my house only ever at his. he has 3 diffrent friend groups and i guess im just lonely. ive been trying to make friends for years and it never works. i feel unlikable. i just want someone to hang out with that likes the same nerdy childish stuff as me. i know this is a first world problem, im just really lonely and its hard not to believe the things ive been told my entire life when no one wants to see me or hang out with me or talk to me. i feel defective and everytume i express my feelings to my boyfriend about my loneliness it feels like he really coudlnt care less