u/ktt_visuals

I, 30M, just had my Anti-Jo1 come back positive.

I've been having intermittent fevers over the past 1.5 years with no other symptoms. Recently started having wrist pain as well as a burning sensation on my skin when sitting still.

I have my rheumatologist appointment tomorrow to go over my results and from what I've read I assume we'll need to do a chest CT, lung capacity tests and maybe a muscle biopsy.

My Anti-Jo1 was borderline last year, but since two reumatologists were pretty dismissive about it, I didn't really dig into the diagnosis that much. However, now that I'm positive, I've been reading up on Antisythetase Syndrome and the other possible myositis-related conditions.

The last week has been hell. I've lost 5kg in 7 days, have zero to no appetite and no will to do anything. Every minute feels like an hour. I tried watching movies, reading books, working, but my mind keeps going to what's ahead of me and the limited life I'm going to have to live.

Nothing has really changed too muhc physically and I was in the gym 5x per week just a week ago, but the mental stress of this is killing me. I've started researching assisted suicide companies in Switzerland for crying out loud. Doesn't help that my gf is out of the country for almost a month so I'm stuck home alone. Haven't been going out because I suspect UV exposure is a trigger for me so I'm sitting here in isolation.

I also had cancer back when I was 18 and kinda felt like I'd done my share of suffering. Can't help but have "why always me" thoughts rn.

How did you deal with your diagnosis? I'd appreciate whatever tips you have...

I'm building my first espresso setup. I'm fairly new to the world of espresso and coffee in general, I've been making coffe in my moka pot for the past couple of years and experimenting with different specialty beans.

I suspect I will mostly be making milk drinks, especially in the beginning. Straight espresso is way too bitter for me, and while I do understand that might be just because my palette is not used to it, I don't think I'll be going that route anytime soon.

I do want to understand coffee and its different notes and components better, so I will probably also be going into pourover for that. I see it as a less intense alternative to espresso that will allow me to "dip my toes in" and get a better grasp of what different types of beans, roast levels, fermentation etc. give you in coffe. But I do love my flat whites lol.

I have a Flair 58+2 on the way, so that's what I'll be using. I settled on that because of a multitude of factors including a stainless steel brew path, lots of options to do different manual profiles, upgradability with things like pressure sensors etc. I know my understanding of coffee is still far from getting to that level, but it's nice to have the option.

For a grinder, I already have the Kingrinder K6, which I've been using for my moka pot coffee. I understand it's a fairly capable grinder which will probably do the trick for espresso as well, but grinding manually for espresso is a pain and I don't think I'll enjoy doing it every morning.

From what I read, entry level conical grinders won't give me much of an upgrade from the K6 other than the automation bit, so I think I want to go with something that will also have a different taste profile, giving me more options. I'm considering things like the MiiCoffee GF64, the DF64 Gen 2/3, DF 54, or maybe a higher end conical that would be good for some extra clarity compared to the K6.

I wouldn't want to go over the 3-400€ mark. I think maybe the DF 64 is the best option in that range with the abiltity to upgrade to SSP burrs in the future, but I'm kind of tempted to justify the MiiCoffee GF64 in my head as it is pretty much half the price and also running 64mm burrs.

I plan to still keep my K6 and probably use it for pour over while keeping the electric grinder calibrated for espresso.

Any input or suggestions appreciated.