17yrs of lonlyness is killing me

I feel broken and lonely.

Since childhood, I've never really had friends. Even when I did, they never truly cared about me—they treated me like I was just there to make everyone laugh.

I never got the love or support I needed from my family either.

Then I fell deeply in love with a girl, but she loved someone else. I still haven't completely moved on.

Even now, I don't have any close friends—male or female. Whenever I try to find a relationship, people seem to judge me by my skin color and my face instead of getting to know who I am.

I earn my own money. I know how to cook. Sometimes it feels like I've gone through experiences that many people don't face until they're in their late twenties or thirties, even though I'm only 17.

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm exhausted, and lately I've been having suicidal thoughts.

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u/kushh2009 — 5 days ago

17yrs of lonlyness is killing me

I feel broken and lonely.

Since childhood, I've never really had friends. Even when I did, they never truly cared about me—they treated me like I was just there to make everyone laugh.

I never got the love or support I needed from my family either.

Then I fell deeply in love with a girl, but she loved someone else. I still haven't completely moved on.

Even now, I don't have any close friends—male or female. Whenever I try to find a relationship, people seem to judge me by my skin color and my face instead of getting to know who I am.

I earn my own money. I know how to cook. Sometimes it feels like I've gone through experiences that many people don't face until they're in their late twenties or thirties, even though I'm only 17.

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm exhausted, and lately I've been having suicidal thoughts.

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u/kushh2009 — 5 days ago

17yrs of loneliness is killing myself

I feel broken and lonely.

Since childhood, I've never really had friends. Even when I did, they never truly cared about me—they treated me like I was just there to make everyone laugh.

I never got the love or support I needed from my family either.

Then I fell deeply in love with a girl, but she loved someone else. I still haven't completely moved on.

Even now, I don't have any close friends—male or female. Whenever I try to find a relationship, people seem to judge me by my skin color and my face instead of getting to know who I am.

I earn my own money. I know how to cook. Sometimes it feels like I've gone through experiences that many people don't face until they're in their late twenties or thirties, even though I'm only 17.

I don't know what to do anymore. I'm exhausted, and lately I've been having suicidal thoughts.

Since I have low karma I can't post anywhere

I lost my previous account due to pass loss of gmail

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u/kushh2009 — 5 days ago

Why do these things happens

I'm so freaking angry about this. Why do some people sexualize women and even their clothes? They're human beings, not objects. Let people wear what they're comfortable in and live their lives without being judged or harassed.

To every girl reading this: be confident, wear what makes you comfortable, don't let creeps decide how you should live, and don't let their behavior change who you are. Ignore, block, and report anyone who crosses the line. Stay safe-you deserve respect, not harassment. Stop sexualizing everything and start respecting people.

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u/kushh2009 — 5 days ago