u/kwazycupcakes88

Hi everyone. I've been a Chevening aspirant for so many years and i'm gonna try it out (finally) in the upcoming cycle.

Any tips? I'm looking at programs related to media and advertising since this is the field i'm currently at.

To zero in, I particularly want to know more about:

1. Interview/Application tips
2. Universities (i already have my preferences, but other inputs are very much welcome
3. Life as a Chevening scholar + your life AFTER :)

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I've been researching for so many years as well, don't worry i'm also doing my part hahaha. But there might be some tips from those who experienced everything first hand 🙏🙏 thank you so much!

hindi ako makatulog ngayon kasi hindi ko inexpect yung ginawa ng childhood friend ko, who's actually my doctor now. (let's call him Doc V haha juskupo bahala na mabunyag ako haahahhaa hay)

i know him since grade school, and on those few times na nag-interact kami, nafeel ko talaga na magkakasundo kami. but we belonged in different friend groups, so we never really had that opportunity na mag-bond over lots of things more frequently. he was a friend, but hindi kami naging "magkatropa"

sa school competitions, naalala ko lagi ko siyang natatalo hahaha i didn't know how he took it before, but he was always this warm, funny kid in school, kaya very friendly competition nung meron kami.

so this was 20+ years ago mmmkay.... we totally lost contact because he transferred to another school in high school.

until 2022. there's this "suspicious" account that followed me on IG, tapos may 1 mutual friend kami, who's also a schoolmate. so i messaged that mutual, and told me na "uy si (doc v) yan"

SOOOO I ACCEPTED THAT REQUEST and boyyyyyy we talked day and night. walang malisya as in, never nga ata namin napag-usapan ang lovelife. though as far as i know he's single and i was too (well, until now).

nagusap kami about sa mga bagay na pinagkakaabalahan namin, and turns out, nalaman ko na he's now a doctor. for so many years, i've been battling a certain illness (hindi ko na lang sasabihin) that requires recurring treatment. so i asked him kung pwede bang sa kanya na lang ako magpa-checkup.

we had an agreement, but i had to put it off for almost a year because i was busy, and i was in the middle of getting clearances from other doctors to proceed with that treatment.

and then after that... finally bumalik na ako sa kanya and pushed through with the assessment and treatment plan. so we see each other more often now. mga 1-2 months.

usually, after the appointment, i just leave and go home. but lately, mas nagiging frequent yung kwentuhan - which i enjoy, really. and then... last week, akala ko parang usual na appointment lang. but we stayed in the clinic na nagkukwentuhan lang for another 3 hours (i was always the last patient because of my super busy sched), we were just talking about random things.

so eventually nagpaalam na ko and told him na i have to go. i opened the door and he went to walk with me as i booked my grab.

so when my ride was already there, i casually just said goodbye and asked him kung after a month ba ako ulit babalik. he said, "yup! see you in a month"

he spread out his arms, wide open, as if gesturing to give me a hug. so i did! friendly hug. alam ko naman na yan.

he hugged me and gently kissed me on the forehead.

sa sobrang bilis ng pangyayari, na-realize ko nalang na nangyari to when i was on my way home and until now hindi pa rin ako talaga makatulog.

ayun lang. i needed to get this off my chest. maybe it was just nothing. but my body felt it. i don't know how to respond to this. i don't want to make it awkward because i have a treatment going on. i feel like this person is special naman to me pero again, i don't wanna make things complicated :(

p.s. wala kaming unethical na ginagawa okayyyy. he just happens to be my friend, and my doctor at the same time.

totoo nga na mas masakit mag-let go kapag hindi naging kayo, kasi ang daming what ifs.

but let me just take up space tonight and really process this.

he's been a special friend for years. shared lots of moments and milestones together. you know the type na gets ka at gets mo din siya? we've always had that.

there were lots of almosts, pero laging at some point matitigil ang communication. then biglang one of us, nasa relationship na.

but i guess that's just universe's way of telling us na we're just meant to be friends.

this guy just got married last month and his wife is quite the catch. ang sakit pero masaya ako kasi masaya naman sila sa isa't isa. na-invite ako sa wedding pero nagpanggap nalang ako na maysakit, and instead gave them a gift.

ang totoo nyan, di ko kayang maki-celebrate kasi mas lumamang yung grief para sa akin.

i guess lalayo na lang muna ako, para sa ikabubuti at ikatatahimik ng lahat.

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para kay E,
i wish you all the best. really. deserve mo yan. i've always loved you, and i'll continue to love you, even if this is what the universe can offer us in this lifetime. i need to respect your decision and i'm happy for you for creating this beautiful life that you have right now.

it's time for me to move on.

i used to think this was a normal thing, pero ngayon na job hunting ako, sobrang rampant ng ganun. tapos aside from the output na hinihingi, napakahahaba pa ng questionnaire na dapat sagutan. most of the details na hinihingi, nasa CV mo na rin naman.

OH and not to mention yung mga nagpaparecord pa ng video na kunwari magpepresent.

one of the experiences I had recently, binigyan ako ng "test brief" ng isang company in AUS. nagmessage to sakin ha, at nag-interview din ako. I really thought this could be a good opportunity to show din kung anong capabilities ko. So nagsend ako nung output ko, nagrecord pa ko ng Loom. (tbh hindi ako nag-all out doon dahil at the end of the day, bibigay ko lang ang full version niyan pag hinire mo na ko, pero di ibig sabihin nun na di ko ineffortan yun noh. pinagpuyatan ko yun promise)

Sabay 2 weeks hindi nagreply. tapos nung nagfollow up ako, sabi niya meron daw silang naging emergency sa office nila (hindi ko na idedetalye to, but medyo tragic yung story and it affected their stocks and their warehouse). I felt sorry. really. sabi ko pa sa dun sa kausap ko, no rush. wag magmadali magreply at nagparating naman ako ng well wishes.

a week after, nagpost sila ng related na job opening dun sa post na inapplyan ko. EWAN KO NALANG. alam kong hindi na worth ng time kong imessage pa siya and besides, hindi ko naman macoconfirm kung talagang nangyari yung emergency na yun kasi nasa ibang bansa siya.

kung nagsisinungaling man siya, KARMA NALANG TALAGA ANG BAHALA

and how was it?