u/lanthels

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it's been about a month since my last update.

ever since school ended, we've still been talking almost every day, meeting up whenever we could, going on walks, and everything honestly felt... normal.

and then, completely out of nowhere, he started dating a girl from his neighborhood .

i wish i was joking.

i didn't even hear it from him. one of our mutual friends mentioned it, and i honestly thought they were messing with me until i saw them together myself.

he never told me.

not once.

i'm not even upset because he has a girlfriend. i'm upset because he didn't think i should know.

what makes this even more confusing is that nothing changed between us.

he still texts me good morning.

he still asks me to hang out.

he still randomly sends me memes because "they reminded him of me."

last weekend he even asked if i wanted to go get ice cream with him, just the two of us.

i've been trying to keep a little distance because i want to respect his relationship, but he keeps acting like everything is exactly the same.

at this point i honestly don't know if i completely misunderstood him, or if he's just as confused as i am.

either way... my head hurts 😭

10 uzerinden puan vercem canim sıkıldı

bugun tarih sinavi olduk ama cok korkunctu ve bende kaldim galiba. onceki tarih sinavlarim cok iyiydi ama bu korkunc gecti😭😭 sizin tarihle araniz nasi?

something important happened.

a few days ago after school, we were sitting together like we usually do. i was nervous the entire time because i had already decided i was going to tell him something.

eventually i just blurted it out.

i told him i'm a femboy.

and then i told him i'm gay.

i was honestly expecting things to get awkward.

instead he just sat there for a second and went:

"okay?"

which somehow made me even more nervous 😭

i asked him if that changed anything.

he looked at me for a second and said:

"why would it?"

and i genuinely didn't know what to say after that.

then he told me he'd pretty much figured it out already.

APPARENTLY EVERYONE KNEW EXCEPT ME???

the part that's been stuck in my head ever since happened when we were leaving.

right before we went home he said:

"you know that doesn't bother me, right?"

and then after a few seconds he added:

"nothing about you does."

i have been thinking about that sentence for three straight days.

so now i'm back here.

once again.

completely confused 😭

first of all, we spend an insane amount of time together now. like to the point where people at school have started making jokes about us being a couple 💀

at first he used to awkwardly deny it immediately, but now he just rolls his eyes and goes “you guys are annoying” while trying not to smile. WHICH IS NOT HELPING MY CONFUSION.

a few days ago we stayed after school again and ended up sitting outside talking for almost two hours. at one point there was this really long silence and i swear i thought something was about to happen because he just kept looking at me for a second too long.

then this idiot suddenly goes:

“why are you looking at me like that?”

WTF ????? YOU WERE LITERALLY DOING THE SAME THING 😭

and the worst part is i’m pretty sure he knows i’m nervous around him now because every time i get flustered he gets this tiny smile like he finds it cute or something.

i genuinely cannot tell if we’re slowly becoming a thing or if this is the most emotionally confusing friendship of all time

we stayed at school for a while and played volleyball together with some other people. at one point he accidentally hit me in the head with the ball and immediately ran over apologizing like he had just committed a crime 💀

he kept asking if i was okay for the next 10 minutes and looked genuinely guilty about it which honestly made the whole thing worse somehow...

later we started walking home together and a car passed really close to us, so he grabbed my hand and pulled me closer to him without even thinking.

but then he just didn’t let go afterwards.

and the whole time we kept casually talking like nothing weird was happening while my brain was completely shutting down.

at one point i looked at him and genuinely felt like i was inside one of those slow burn romance movies because there is NO way people act like this and stay “just friends”

i’m a (17m) and my friend (17m) has been acting REALLY weird lately 😭at first i thought he was just joking around but now i’m confused as hell.

he buys me flowers “as a joke”, remembers tiny details about me, randomly sends me good morning texts, fixes my hair when we’re outside, and gets weirdly protective if another guy flirts with me.

last week i said i was cold and this man literally gave me his hoodie immediately like we’re in a damn netflix series 💀

he also calls me pretty WAY too much for a straight guy. like sir??? hello???

and yesterday he posted a story with me and used a heart emoji. A HEART. this man has never used emojis in his life before.

the problem is whenever i ask him about it he laughs it off and says “bro relax”

am i being delusional or is this dude actually flirting with me 😭

what should i do? please help😭

i’m a (17m) and my friend (17m) has been acting REALLY weird lately 😭at first i thought he was just joking around but now i’m confused as hell.

he buys me flowers “as a joke”, remembers tiny details about me, randomly sends me good morning texts, fixes my hair when we’re outside, and gets weirdly protective if another guy flirts with me.

last week i said i was cold and this man literally gave me his hoodie immediately like we’re in a damn netflix series 💀

he also calls me pretty WAY too much for a straight guy. like sir??? hello???

and yesterday he posted a story with me and used a heart emoji. A HEART. this man has never used emojis in his life before.

the problem is whenever i ask him about it he laughs it off and says “bro relax”

am i being delusional or is this dude actually flirting with me 😭

what should i do? please help😭

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i’m a (17m) and my friend (17m) has been acting REALLY weird lately 😭at first i thought he was just joking around but now i’m confused as hell.

he buys me flowers “as a joke”, remembers tiny details about me, randomly sends me good morning texts, fixes my hair when we’re outside, and gets weirdly protective if another guy flirts with me.

last week i said i was cold and this man literally gave me his hoodie immediately like we’re in a damn netflix series 💀

he also calls me pretty WAY too much for a straight guy. like sir??? hello???

and yesterday he posted a story with me and used a heart emoji. A HEART. this man has never used emojis in his life before.

the problem is whenever i ask him about it he laughs it off and says “bro relax”

am i being delusional or is this dude actually flirting with me 😭

what should i do? please help😭